Monday, April 14, 2025

April 2020 Diary: Fear, Writing, and Ramen


4/13/2020: Up about 6:30 AM. Wrote down dreams. Andy came over about 7:40 AM to talk about chicken salad; the upshot is, the salad is still on. Salmon patties, couscous, and pea salad for supper. Prayers, Bible rosary, ramen, leftovers, Grimm’s, Frankenstein, and a little writing on KK [King Korm], AFYHM [A Friend You Haven’t Met]. So it went. Cold near the evening.

 

4/14/2020: Up at 6:30 AM. Prayers, Bible. Andy came in and said I should make ham and use regular potatoes [instead of red potatoes?] for the cabbage for supper. Ramen (w/eggs, bread) for breakfast, and just ramen for lunch. Wrote a good bit on AFYHM and sent a batch to John. Pretty cool all day.

The new use of potatoes worked very well; everyone agreed it was very tasty. I finished off the pea salad and made cucumber salad. Other than making Kam bacon and eggs this morning I hardly saw him at all. Susan says he is pouting because he missed a few online sessions with school and church, and she fussed him. Kenny read more Grimm’s and Frankenstein, but I hardly listened.

John’s e-mail: Wow! This [A Friend You Haven’t Met] is getting really way out! Reminds me a bit of Robertson Davies.  Fun stuff! So, is Old Bob really Bob Bob? If you get my meaning, sir. I returned to work today, where wearing masks is now required, which is a good thing, I suppose - but made for a kind of surreal night.  Interesting that the virus has made its way into the tale.  But it is hard to ignore it, isn’t it? And if you are in a surreal fantasy story writing business, then it is kind of an ideal natural stage management to have it presiding over things. I kind of like that you have put the damn thing to work for you- empowering, that! I like it!

 

4/15/2020: Wow. April already halfway over. Got up at 7 AM to clear streaming sun but a chill in the air. Prayers and Bible. Washed dishes then watched some Perry Mason, while catching up diary and checking e-mail. Cramps in legs when I woke up.

Made ramen at 9 AM. It was almost 11 AM when Kam asked me to make eggs and bacon. Ate leftover cabbage and taters for lunch, along with ramen. For supper made chicken breasts, rice, and broccoli. Rosary. Yen started reading “The Three Mulla-Mulgars” [aka “The Three Royal Monkeys”] today and continued “Frankenstein”. The day was chilly but sunny. No writing.

 

4/16/2020: Up about 4:30 AM. Prayers, Bible, rosary. I’ve been wanting to record lately that perhaps the occasional hypnagogic vision of people bending over my bed might be the flashes of a primeval memory of people bending over my cradle. Played a lot of WWF [Words With Friends] and made a blog post. Dressed, then laid down a while.

Kam called me at 8 AM. Got up, translated a page of KK, and listened to some Perry Mason while I waited for 9 AM to roll around. Finished up the cabbage and taters, then the broccoli rice for breakfast. Had a couple of sandwiches for lunch. It’s warmer today, and perhaps my full stomach (or just my inertia) also accounts for my afternoon slow down. I had intended to work on AFYHM and maybe even some Chapter Four [of Bob’s Book] today. Much time-wasting with watching gameplay of DG8. Well, it’s almost 3 PM and time to husk the corn, I think.

First, I grassed the dogs and fed them. As I started on the corn, Andy came home; the exterminator was paying a visit. Andy caged the Rotts and the Chis were going nuts, but it was over fairly quickly. Made chili, rotini, and corn. E-mailed John:

I have at least three projects I should be working on. I could write on Chapter Four of Bob's Book; I could finish the new story of "A Friend You Haven't Met"; or I can finish 'translating' [into prose] the script parts of "King Korm".  I seem to only be able to work on one at a time, and to have very little inclination to go back to Bob's Book at the moment. What I would like to do is force myself to work on a page a day for each at least, and if one catches fire again to just fly with that. The onset of warmer - but not hot yet - weather seems to be making me sleepy. Anything I do get done happens in the morning. The absence of the few "time markers" [during the shutdown] that I used to have - sending Kam off to school, going to the store, getting to church - has kind of set me adrift in the doldrums. Routine, such as it was, helped me set a schedule. I write this mainly to chide myself, but also to explain to you what goes.  Perhaps (though it is by no means a sure thing) it will help get me back on track. This is certainly a period when you think the atmosphere of impending doom could act as a spur! (I must confess that it was also a fishing line, a hint, a toe in the water, floating out the idea that the pay might start up again. But how could I spend it?)

Yen read 3MM, then I went in to clean up and make Kam some toast. Then listened to Yen finish Frankenstein, with much breakup of connectivity. Now it’s 10 PM, and I’m thinking about hitting the hay.

 

4/17/2020: Up after struggling with sleep all night, like Jacob with the angel, not letting it depart until it had blessed me. I don’t think my apnea will ever let me have a good session ever again. If only they would invent that half-circle recliner I envision! Got up about 7:30 AM from a dream; the coronavirus is now officially in my head.

So. Out of ramen. At 9 AM made a couple of sandwiches. At lunch made a batch of rice with school butter, onions, and spices. A new experiment but quite delicious. Did a smidge of work on KK, AFYHM, and BB2C4 [Bob’s Book 2 Chapter 4], but mainly watched the House marathon and DQ8 [Dragon Quest 8] on YT (watched it at twice the speed; perhaps that’s what inspired my dream on the 18th), and wasted too much time on FB arguing that Starfleet had a military dimension, if only defensive. For supper, started frying potatoes at about 3 PM (a lengthy process, given my facilities in the house). We had fish, fried potatoes, and cucumber salad for supper. Kam didn’t eat with us. There was an extra piece of fish in the bag, too. Bible, prayers, and rosary kind of late today – I had done half my prayers in the morning). Kenny wasn’t able to read tonight. Started watching “Hail, Caesar!” on Netflix. Bed about 9 PM.

 

4/18/2020: Up at 6:30 AM. Wrote down dream, said most of my prayers, and caught up my diary. The rest of my prayers and Bible. Cooked up some rice with last night’s fried potato oil, so have a lump of grease and starch for breakfast. Stitched up the pocket in my shorts at last, so if I do nothing else today at least I’ve accomplished that. Ready for a shower.

So, rest of the day: watched playthrough of DQ8, had a couple of gross sausage patties for lunch, watched more “Hail, Caesar!”, prayed a rosary, got leftover cucumber salad, chicken salad, fried potatoes and boiled eggs for supper, sent Kris Jerome “Mighty Mikku”, watched a new Duck Tales. Worked on all three of my projects a bit. And now I have to go and make that last statement accurate. Okay, did that. I’m full right now, but I’m jonesing for something sweet, or a drink other than water, or a big ball of cheese. Even some of my “sun tea” would be great now. My cupboard is bare, and I have no ticket for tonight’s lottery, even though I have money. Just not sure if the store is open, or if I could get there with no mask. Let it go.

 

4/19/2020: Up about 6:30 AM. Prayers and Bible, and at 7 AM watched Mass on EWTN. Then I looked up our St. James Mass on YouTube; apparently it premieres on Saturday afternoon, so must remember that. Afterwards I did my usual computer scrounging (DQ8 and Breath of the Wild), then laid down for a nap. Andy woke me up about 1 PM, bringing me ramen soups; I had a couple for breakfast/lunch, then a couple at 4 PM. Anoles and squirrels frisky about. I went out on the front porch about 4:30 PM and said my rosary. The day had grown quite warm (almost 90 degrees) but the wind was blowing and birds and butterflies flitting everywhere. A big pigeon came and perched in the lavender tree for a long time. I went in and a little after 5 PM I took my first dip in the pool. Cold and pretty cloudy water just yet. After a while Susan came out and told me Andy was going to mow. We talked a while. My left leg looked almost necrotic. I went in, and at about 7 PM Andy comes in and says there’s pizza. I go in and we eat, and I have a glass of Dr. Pepper. I listen to Yen read 3MM and Hound of the Baskervilles. Afterwards (it might be the caffeine) I found myself able the write 3 pages on AFYHM. Read to the end of 3MM on the Kindle and now (12:20 AM) am ready to lay down a while.

 

4/20/20: Up a little before 8 AM. Short prayers. Went in at 9 AM, started my wash, made Kam bacon and eggs, then boiled eggs and chicken salad, then made my Monday ramen (which tends to have chicken juice, an egg, and bread in it). Changed loads by 10 AM, then again a little after 11 AM. Went in a little after 12, and started broccoli salad. Had the last two pieces of pizza. Wrote a couple of pages. John called and we talked a bit; some about his worries about work, some about him wanting to contact Kenny. A little after 4 PM let the dogs out, fed the pets (Ditto the cat is back, after an absence). Made fish rings and couscous. Went in before 8 PM to make Kam supper, clean up, and tell Susan that John is dropping stuff off after work. Cleaned up my files from background page and changed it to Trodain Castle [from DQ8]. Time for long prayers, Bible, and rosary. Today warm again, with lots of birds, squirrels, and lizards running around. Still wondering if I dare go to Texas Cooler to get a lottery ticket.

Notes

Well, they have made the sort of recliner I envisioned, I never did get back to BB2 (the Franklinstein chapter), and I haven't played Dragon Quest 8 for longer than I'd have imagined. The birds and beasts are starting to come back again: lots of cardinals, squirrels, and racing lizards. And at least Covid broke me of the habit of getting lottery tickets.


 

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