Personal Note

At 6 AM today I was suddenly overcome with the futility of all action and just laid back down. Cartoons came on, and just to show you how low I felt, I actually watched a Roadrunner cartoon all the way through! That set me back to sleep. I got up again at about 7:25 AM and finished my prayers, took my medicine (late). Whether it is the August doldrums that account for my lethargy or whether it is internal loginess that is the culprit, I cannot say. Perhaps I’m at the bottom of my depression cycle; the feeling that things might get down to the wire by the end of the month could be a contributing factor, as well as the repetitive nature of all that needs doing, all the time, day after day. Or the examples of stupidity and folly I see everywhere I look on the internet, where the worst “are full of passionate intensity.” Anyway, I can’t face Tolkien Tuesday today. Not just yet. I am sorry. Whether I do not do things and they pile up, or I do things and they seem pointless, both seem to be crushing alternatives. Perhaps a little quiet and a little patience will see me out of this slump. I hope so.