Well, for a start, this shall be the home for my Biographical Inventory of Books. After that, who knows?
Thursday, October 31, 2024
Our Three Childhood Prayers
Edgar ... Allan ... Booooo!!: October 2019
10/27/2019: Up about 5:30
AM. Prayed, catechism, Bible. Showered, dressed, (coat and vest; it was 44
degrees), then off at 7 AM. When I was crossing by the bank, I was surprised by
a greeting from a little old lady passing me by, also on the way to church.
Church pretty full today; it was a school function, so not only kids but also
their relatives. After Mass, got some holy water. Walked over and bought some
tea, which I had just enough money to do. Came back home, limping rather, and
drenched in sweat, as it was now warming up. Ate breakfast/lunch. Reading Poe's letters,
where he is undergoing an all too familiar struggle to financially survive his
youth and then scrabbling to make his way in the literary world, which turns
out to be far more personal than we expect. Took a rather long nap. At about
3:30 PM go in the house and Susan gives me Pumpkin Delights, pecan pies, and
bananas. At 4:30 PM watch "Saints vs. Scoundrels", the second half of
the St. Maximillian Kolbe and Josef Goebbels one. A little after 5 PM am disturbed
by a bunch of yelling in the neighborhood. What could it be?
Spent the evening reading
some more Poe, then quit. Tried watching a few videos on Poe on YT. Po' old
Poe. Only 40 when he died. His struggle to make a living by writing reminds me
only too much of Mike ... and his quest to find love, and the seeking relief in
drink and drugs, and the compromises with the dirty devices of the world, and
the constant rejection of what he had to offer. And the weird, vicious humor
that animates his writing, not always acknowledged by his readers; Mike shares
that too.
Blah. I'm too full of
bananas; I ate five this evening. My poor legs. They seem to just be getting
worse. Does it herald worse circulation, warn me of perhaps a fatal heart
disfunction coming on? Perhaps; it wouldn't surprise me. And what can I do
about it, my conditions being what they are?
10/28/2019: Up a little
after 5 AM; prayer, catechism, Bible. Got some writing done: Jocasta’s
interview with Trager.
At 9 AM started the wash.
Got the stuff to make Kameron a sausage patty and scrambled eggs, took them in,
and then he tells me he only wants an apple! He eats some of the sausage and
gives me the rest (I had already fried myself up a couple of patties to eat on
a sandwich). Call Andy and confirm; no chicken salad today, so that's less work
I have. Got Kam off at 10:25 AM, swept porch, changed load, and went in.
Connection had been good all morning to listen to Gilbert Gottfried. At noon
went off to get wash and S&A were there, cleaning Babe's rug (the last
inside cat); her peeing is not getting into the box anymore. Connection poops
out at 12:20 PM, coinciding with caution beeps going off throughout the land,
so I expect construction is back on (it was damp and cloudy all morning).
October is really zipping by now.
Between 1 and 2 PM I made
the broccoli salad; yes, it takes at least an hour to prepare. Between 2 and
3:20 PM I was able to finish my YouTube shows; I keep thinking about setting
down to write again but feel not the slightest inclination, if also an urge to
finish Aunt Jocasta before Halloween. Grass dogs, feed pets, and start supper
(fish rolls and couscous, again). Kam comes home just a little later (say 4:30
PM) than usual. I, having eaten my salad while waiting, take my couscous back
to my house and prepare it with a cup of noodles. Having started Dracula after
abandoning Poe, I decide to drop that after reaching the end of Harker's first
adventure. 'Tis strange, but I always consider Poe as being older than me;
probably from when I first read him as a boy, when his experience seemed to
make him centuries older. Now that I realize he was only forty, he seems almost
a brat. After the death of his beloved Virginia, he was wooing about THREE
different ladies at the same time. Well, he certainly seems to have lived more
life than I ever have in so short a life.
Looked back in my diary for
today in 2018. I was writing Sergeant Roth. Wow. That seems a forever ago. I
was still waiting for the editor to get back to me about AGODP.
From John: I know what you mean regarding Poe - both in
terms of his Mike-ishness and his relative age. I had a dream the other morning
with Mike in it- I don't remember any of the details except that he had been
trying to get me to go along with some scheme or another and was putting on his
full charm offensive. I decided against it,
and immediately his mask fell and he turned hateful and vindictive - an
occurrence that happened more than once for real- and it reminded me of that
side of Mike - just a hurtful outrageous selfishness- usually the more nasty
activities would bring it out of him. A complicated,
sometimes surprisingly mysterious person.
I guess it is healthier to consider the good and bad in everyone,
ourselves included- painful though it can be, and know we are all weak and
stupid about certain subjects and fall prey to making dumb mistakes. There
would be no need for God's mercy otherwise.
Me: And I know what you mean
about Mike. But then the dead all seem mysterious, once they are dead. When
they are alive, they appear so obvious. They are what they are, and you think
they are plain as pikestaffs, and then you find hints (sometimes from other
people who saw other facets of them) that there are hidden corners you never
thought to question, or perhaps never dared to, or that perhaps just couldn't
be expressed. I suppose we all carry mysteries like that to our graves.
"For now we see as in a mirror darkly, but then we shall see face to face;
now I know in part, but then I shall know and also be known." I know I have
some rotten shabby corners. I suppose we'll all look at each other pretty
sheepishly, ask forgiveness, forgive, have a good laugh, and then forget all
about it. Mike appears in my dreams in pretty dubious and desperate situations,
but seldom angry. In fact, in one he seemed rather pleased with my book. You
appeared in my dreams lately: I was being chased by bears and you and Joey
popped up over the brow of a hill with guns and started shooting them.
John: That's true about the dead, isn't it? I guess
you try to put people into some kind of totality in your mind, to file them
away, like we do all things that are past, but being multidimensional beings,
they resist such easy categorization, and we are seeing them, really for the
first time in a way. I dream of Mike a lot, a couple of times a week, most
weeks- and he arrives in many different moods and modes, sometimes really
great, sometimes like the other day's dream. I've dreamt of having arguments
with Mom and Pop that were rough, too - more so than I ever had with them in
life. What exactly is that about, I wonder? Unresolved issues, I guess. Sigh.
10/29/2019: Up about 6:30
AM, got dressed, prayers, catechism, Bible. Made ramen. Settled down to write
and got the kitchen scene with Greta done. Kam called (Susan had taken him to
the dentist) at 9:40 AM and asked me to start breakfast; fried him some bacon
and scrambled eggs. They got here a little after 10 AM and he went out to wait
for the bus at 10:20 AM, and I with him. When done, locked up the house, made
lunch ramen, and said a Rosary. Now 12:20 PM, connectivity is bad, and I'm
thinking about laying down for a nap. Weather coolish, but calm, a little
drippy. Rosary.
So at 2 PM I made a sausage
patty sandwich (microwaved it too hard) and some popcorn, in the big house as
I'm too cowardly to use mine after it sparked that day. At 4PM I grassed and
fed and started supper (sausages and cabbage and taters). Kam home at 4:30 PM.
He called me at 7 PM to grass the chis again, and get him: a patty, Tx toast,
and 2 corn dogs. He said S&A had gone to a wedding, and I saw the supper
was untouched. I am going in at 9 PM to put it away, or at least get it ready
to put away when they get home, leaving it out warm in case they want to eat.
To John: As I mentioned I am working on a new short
story, "Aunt Jocasta", based on a dream I had many years ago. I am
hoping to have it done by Halloween, and I hope I haven't just jinxed it by
mentioning the fact. I don't know what it is about deadlines that holds me in a
dread fixation as they approach, like a bird paralyzed in the gaze of an
approaching serpent. At least I have been pecking away at the tale for the last
few days, forcing myself down to it, and feel some confidence in the story as I
proceed. I have a suspicion that I surround the writing process with a bunch of
conditions and taboos and "feels", just as lazy excuses not to do it.
Generally when I do apply myself, I have quite a good time doing it, so why the
reluctance?
Don't know if it's the
weather or the season or what, but I find myself skipping and cackling and
popping off Tourette's-like quotes and voices, often in an excess of
nervousness. Nervous ... yes, I am very nervous, but why do you insist on
calling me mad? Just because I'm seeing moving shadows in glass doors that fall
from nowhere, and now with the fans off I hear every little creak and pop and
unidentifiable scuffle from outside, and, yes, from inside as well? This is not
insanity, but the sudden awakening from a foolish sleep! Wait ... there! There
at the window! The three-lobed burning eye of madness! Aiyeeeeee ....!
We now return you to your
regularly scheduled program.
10/30/2019: Up at 4 AM, and
between getting dressed, prayers, catechism, Bible, breakfast, making Kameron’s
breakfast at 4 AM, getting him on his way at 10:20 AM, wrote nine pages by 11
AM. Day cold and drippy; had to take towel in and out of the house to keep my
shoes clean.
Took a nap until two and
made a sausage patty sandwich for lunch; mayonnaise is really too salty to go
with the sausage. Popped some corn. Day still cold and cloudy but not so wet.
Feel that I'm in a good march of the end of AJ. Heard and saw the yearly flock
of crows pass over the back yard.
Blah, blah, and so on.
Reheated stuff for supper. Had a leftover sausage at 8 PM when I cleaned up,
and they gave me a roll from Whataburger. Rosary. Bed at 10 PM.
10/31/2019: Halloween. Up at
3 AM, wrote down dream, started writing on AJ. Dressed, prayed, catechism and
Bible at intervals, and by 7:30 wrote "Happy Halloween, Aunt
Jocasta". I am a short coda away from being done with the first draft.
Pausing to eat.
Wrote the coda; sent copies
to John and Kenny a little before 9 AM. Peeled Kameron's apple at 9 AM. Now
making myself some stuffing. The day is bright and clear, just as I predicted
for Halloween in AJ before the sun even rose. I am in that happy little handful
of hours where I don't feel obliged to work on any writing. Went in at 10 AM
and got Kam off to school, after standing with him near at the end of the
driveway. Came in, cleaned up, and now it's 11 AM and time for a nap.
John replied at 2:19 PM: Ah!
Now it feels like Halloween! Well done, indeed.
Reminds me of Bradbury in his ghoulish mode! Of course being a fiendish
fan of such concoctions, I deduced the twist; but the buildup and payoff was
masterfully constructed- and the bit of Samuel's offing Greta did surprise me
nicely- a gruesome sauce on top! Thanks for the Halloween inspiration! 🎃
About 7 PM Andy brought me
out the traditional Halloween Sonic corn dogs - 4 of them, with a bunch of
mustard. Yummy! Rosary, and early to bed.
Spent the day with no
writing. At 3 PM grassed and fed animals, then waited on the porch reading for
Kam to get home. He came at 4:30 PM and I took all the broccoli salad for
supper and turned in. About 7 PM while I was saying the rosary Andy came in,
gave me the rest of the pecan pies, and said I could have some of the stew from
his dad's party. I said tomorrow. I went to bed about 9 PM.
Wednesday, October 30, 2024
Wideo Wednesday: Halloween
Monday, October 28, 2024
An Explanation That Does Not Explain Much, But Does Apologize
Sunday, October 27, 2024
John and J. R. R.
J. R. R. Tolkien, what he
means to me, or how I have taken some part of his poetically visionary
construction and danced with it in a nourishing artistic symbiosis. That’s
right I love him. His mythic vision of a world where the deepest parts of
ourselves are personified and play-acted in a semi-religious fairy tale has
been a guide and a balm for me as I’ve navigated the greater part of my time on
this planet. Yes, he is cool as hell, and I’ve been in love with his shit since
I was a kid. His stories beat them all. Planet of the Apes. Star
Trek. Star Wars. The great gods of young male adventure lovers. For
me, Tolkien stories beat them all in every possible metric for appreciative
attention.
The beasts, the battles, the
bad guys – the stories rang with the authority of the Old Testament and the
blood and thunder of the Grimmest of fairy tales. But more than that, the sheer
poetic grandness of Middle-earth and all its inhabitants and eras swept me a
reframing of my own world view. I saw the romance of nature – moon cycles,
whispering trees, foamy waves, blazing sunsets, all through the lens of
Tolkien’s painter’s eye. I appreciated my own world more after reading about
his. What perfect art! From the start the stories hinted at a deeper more
foundational understanding of a mortal’s navigation through his time of
strutting and fretting. The promise of that deeper understanding was
well-founded as I have experienced a maturing admiration for the more existential
aspect of the spirit of Middle-earth and its stories.
I still really love his
shit, but in a truer, more profound way than before. It has been both
gratifying and nauseating to see the supernova of appreciation for Tolkien’s
works in the last couple of decades. The decadence of the defilers who bought
and abused the myth as a mere IP is a parasitic nuisance, the barnacles that
have attached themselves to the whale of the Tolkien legacy, the cost of
swimming in the culture’s waters. Still, it is painful to both have to know what’s being done and then to actually see it being done. Like watching a dear
friend get beat down in public.
Still, I remain optimistic about the road ahead for my dear dance with the spirit of Middle-earth. No matter what, the original The Hobbit, The Lord of the Rings, The Silmarillion are still here for us on demand. We have the most profound, life-affirming narrative that has ever been conceived and executed, this side of William Shakespeare. Only more so. There, I said it. Yes, I know the great original stories, and they have good bones.
Saturday, October 26, 2024
Wideo Weekend: Count Dracula
Every Halloween the old
debate about which is the best adaptation of Dracula comes around. If one is of
a certain generation, they might list the Lugosi or Lee incarnations; younger
folks might choose the Langella or Oldman films. But the best adaptation by far
was the BBC’s Count Dracula (1977), starring Louis Jordan as the
Count.
Originally airing on the BBC
in December 1977, in the United States, Count Dracula was
shown as part of PBS's Great Performances anthology
series in three parts starting March 1, 1978, and later on Halloween, October
31, 1979. I believe we caught at least some of that March airing, which assured
us it was worthy of remembrance. That Halloween of 1979 we were determined to
record it on audio tape.
I myself could not be there;
it was decreed that I must journey with Mom to Nanny’s house in San Marcos to
work on some of her interminable paperwork. I was uncomfortable about being
abroad on the spooky night, especially at Nanny’s House of Horror, which at
night seemed a likely stage for some kind of atrocity. But go I must.
It was up to John to man the
tape recorder, flipping the tape when necessary and maintaining complete
silence while recording. A task which he accomplished with great skill, even
adding in husky tones when all was said and done that “Van Helsing was played
by Frank Finlay.”
I was certainly pleased when
I found a DVD of the show, and the entirety of it can be found here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpKhF4Ts_6k
The acting is first-rate,
though the special effects might seem a little dated and obviously stagey now
and then. But if you can suspend your disbelief in those moments, you will find
Count Dracula a haunting and even gruesome tale, well worth viewing on a
smoky October night.
Friday, October 25, 2024
Friday Fiction: The Case of Ambrose Abernathy (Part Six and Last)
Then the agent felt himself trip
and fall, and he was drawn sliding through a long, dark, slippery tunnel
downward. For one headlong, disorienting moment all thought except fear fled
from his mind; then he was pulled tumbling out into an open space on a trail
squelching ooze. He could feel the tentacles let go of his limbs. He sat up,
clothes soaked, and tried to wipe his dripping face clear.
Trey came sliding out behind him,
bumping his back, jostling him down into the muck again. The creature scrambled
up and ran ahead, yelping "Milk! Milk! Milk!" The words echoed in a
cavernous space.
Abernathy rubbed his eyes clear,
blowing the trailing mucus from his mustache, spitting the foul drainage from
his mouth. When he had finally caught his breath, he looked up, squinting,
trying to make sense of his surroundings, and was struck dumb in trepidation
and wonder.
He was in an enormous space, like
an underground cathedral, or amphitheater. Huge pillars, where stalactites
dripped down to meet stalagmites, ringed the vast room, the slick flowstone
leading downward to the bottom of the bowl. There, by a ghastly pale green
light, seemingly shed by itself, lay a pulsating mound that his mind struggled
to understand.
He stood up on shaking legs. At
his feet lay the mucid tentacles, slowly withdrawing towards the glowing mass.
He followed them with tottering, unsure steps, afraid to draw near the inchoate
mass but feeling unable to do anything else, pulled forward by gravity and
fascination and a deep sense that here at last was the heart of the mystery.
The first thing he could make out
clearly was the litter of dog-men, lying in a bulky throng around a central,
shapeless pile of rough globes. He saw Trey, his slobbering mouth attached to
one of the globes, eagerly sucking out a pale liquid that dribbled out the
sides of his jowls. Every now and then he murmured ecstatically, "Milk.
milk." Even as he crept nearer, Abernathy saw him grow sleepy and slow,
falling into a dozing stupor like his brood-mates. The sound of their whizzing
breath filled the air. The dog-men snuggled up to the bumpy mass as if it were
a pillow. The agent drew nearer, eyes darting, trying to locate this dreaded
She that he knew must be near.
Abruptly, as if he had entered
some unmarked sphere of influence, a voice bloomed on his inner ear. It was
neither male nor female, but it rang in his mind in husky, alien tones,
overwhelming his own conscious dialog. He winced under its onslaught, panicking
at the impact of its words.
Welcome, husband, it said.
"Where are you?" he
squawked out loud, looking around wildly, trying to locate the source of the
voice. "Show yourself!"
I am here, it said. All around. I
have been here, forever. And now you shall be too, and our children shall
conquer the overworld, and then I shall be there too, forever.
"Never!" Abernathy
shrieked, climbing the pile, still searching for the speaker. He felt that,
trapped and unarmed as he was, he would in his new panic still try to tear this
thing apart, with his bare hands if he had to, rather than suffer Kindermass's
fate. His eyes darted around desperately. "Where are you?"
You stand on me.
The agent looked wildly down at
his feet. The warty, globular mass he had been treading was already extruding
new groping tentacles from its glimmering bulk.
Only his immediate instinctive
terror saved him. He jumped backward off the sloping pile, scuttering down the
mound of bubbling lumps and through the congeries of sleepily complaining
dog-things, who whimpered at his passing. The tentacles followed swiftly,
questing blindly for his flesh.
He tried to rush up the slimy
slopes to escape back through the tunnel, but slid down, defeated by gravity
and his own weakness. The tentacles advanced on him, slow but inexorable. He
turned and limped away from their progress, exhausted, panicked, blindly
seeking another exit in the dimness of the peripheries of the cave.
As he turned to gauge his
pursuer's approach, he stumbled over something in the dark, sending him
headlong to the ground. His skull rang with the jolt and his battered limbs
blazed with pain. He turned and half-sat up, dazed, looking back. In the
growing green light of the oncoming tentacles, he saw what had tripped his
steps.
It was the now battered and
beslimed bulk of his lost case kit.
He looked up instinctively and
saw, far above in the roof of the cavern directly over the heap, the pale dot
of light, where, distant from these nightmare caves, the clean dawning of the
sun must be illuminating the mouth of the well. The falling case had rebounded
away to this spot. He had only a fraction of a second to grab it before the
tentacles had seized him. They began reeling him back to the knobby mass, which
was now writhing and heaving in apparent anticipation.
Abernathy fumbled the case open
and began scrabbling among its contents. The first thing that came to his hand
was the athema, the mystic knife, wound with incantations and marked with signs
of power. He drew it from its sheath and lashed visciously at the knotty
tendrils that held him.
The blade rebounded harmlessly
off the rubbery flesh. The tentacles never paused. He stared incredulously,
then tried sawing frantically away at the binding arms. It was like cutting a
boarding-house roast. In frustration he brought the knife down once more in a
hacking blow. It bounced off, stinging his hand, and went ringing off into the
darkness.
By now he had been dragged back
to the rim of the mass. The dog-men had awakened, alerted by the increased
activity of their eldritch mother. They churned around it, baffled, excited,
crying softly to each other. But they all started yelping and trying to run
away when Abernathy drew out the pistol and shot six silver bullets wildly into
the mass at their middle.
The shots sank harmlessly into
the semi-gelatinous body. For a moment it drew in, like a snail wincing, then
it expanded eagerly.
Ah, silver, it said in his head.
I have not had this sustenance in many years. I thank you for this wedding
gift, my husband. He was dragged in closer to the central mass at the top of
the monster. To his horror he saw a muculent maw opening there, ready to
welcome his unwilling flesh.
Abernathy went wild. He began
throwing the contents of the kit at the creature in a frenzy, willy-nilly,
whatever came to his hand. The thing's tentacles, as if excited and aroused by
all the activity, grasped and batted at the objects as they pelted its
impervious hide. The Bible was torn in pieces, the salt bag exploded by a swat,
the bottle of rum crushed like an egg in one squeezing arm. The five-pointed
star rebounded uselessly off the thing's knurled skin.
There was one last thing in the
case. He seized the ball-like object blindly and hurled it toward the maw. It
was intercepted by one frenzied, coiling arm. Abernathy had one second to
recognize the bomb before the tentacle contracted, squeezing the plunger, and
the world was filled with roaring flaming light that lifted him toward the roof
of the cavern, and he knew no more.
"They found me, they say,
almost a mile from the Kindermass farm, unconscious, naked, bruised, my hair
burned off, but somehow still alive," the quivering, bandaged little man
concluded. "There was no way to tell who I was. I was brought here, a
charity case, and when I woke up, I called for you. I had to tell you, to warn
you ..." He choked.
Frobisher patted the agent again,
his old hand light as a leaf.
"There, there," he
said. "We've got your report now." He leaned back and his face
creased in a wrinkled smile. "And congratulations! You've had your first
successful case. Do you still feel like leaving the Bureau?"
Abernathy's eyes boggled behind
his wrappings.
"Well...no..." he
stammered. "But that monster...the danger to the world..."
"Probably minimal,
considering you seem to have blown the thing up," Frobisher concluded. He
began to bring himself creakily to his feet. He looked over at the secretary,
who was folding up his papers. "Any observations, Mr. Williams?"
"Only that I read in the
papers some time ago that the Kindermass farm was engulfed in a massive
sinkhole," he said briskly. He did up the final latch of the casebook.
"The sisters and their pet escaped just in time. As Mr. Abernathy had been
on the case at the time, I sent an agent to check on the site, but he found
nothing unusual." He reached down to the prostrate agent and shook his
hand. "I had my dreadful doubts as to your survival, but regulations
require a year to pass before I inform the Director officially. Again,
congratulations, sir! You have surpassed all my expectations."
"But ... but we must make
sure..."
"Relax and recuperate,
Ambrose," Frobisher said expansively, stretching his back and taking up
his cane. "It's all taken care of. We'll be getting you moved to a better
hospital soon." He looked around at the cacophonous bedlam of poor
patients who had now awakened and were clamoring for the noon-day meal.
"I'm sure you could use the peace and quiet.”
"But, sir, I..."
"Good-bye, Abernathy."
The old Director lifted his hand and waved over his head, he and the secretary
already well on their way out.
Abernathy lay back and closed his
eyes, weary with telling his tale. Perhaps I should just rest, he thought,
giving up. It's out of my hands now. He tried to relax and ignore the babble of
voices and the sound of none too delicate feeding around him.
He might have drifted off, if it
weren't for the sudden squabble in the far corner of the room. A new patient
was refusing the offer of the watery potato soup the sister was trying to feed
him.
"Don't want it, nope,
nope," came a familiar voice. "Milk, milk, milk!"
Abernathy sat bolt upright,
screaming.
--August 28, 2017 to April 13,2018
Thursday, October 24, 2024
The Case of Ambrose Abernathy (Part Five)
"Here, here!" said Trey huskily. "This Poppa's room. Quiet
now! Shh!"
As short as he was, the
agent had to get down on all fours to squeeze in. His trouser knees joined his
now-tattered socks in being soaked by the dripping slimy floor, and as worn as
the rocks were, he managed to snag and tear them, bloodying his kneecaps. Once
inside he stood up groaning loudly, much to the alarm of Trey and the squirming
horde that followed them impulsively behind.
"Sh! Sh!" susurrated
huskily through the little chamber, with frightened glances at a shadowy
corner. Most of the beasts started scattering immediately to the door on the
other side of the room, flowing like water past the disoriented little man. He
almost went to his knees again with the pattering pressure. Only Trey's
grasping clutch on Abernathy's shoulder kept the bewildered agent upright. But
he was nearly knocked down in the panicked exodus that ensued when a loud angry
voice from the shadowy corner yelled out, "Here! What disturbs my
sleep?"
In a twinkling the beasts
had scrambled out and away, yelping, all except Trey, who stood cringing and
whimpering, Abernathy's shoulder pinched cruelly in the reflexive grip of his
black claws. Abernathy himself might have followed after them, if it weren't
for that. He watched in dread fascination as the tall shadowy figure hunched
and scrabbled in the darkness. There was the crack and flare of another
crystal, and the hairy and horrible figure of the thing was revealed.
It was tall but bent, with
bloody red eyes and matted, grizzled brown hair that tangled into a trailing,
filthy beard. It was dressed in hanging, rotten rags. Its entire countenance
was drawn down in a frown, burly black eyebrows and pinched mouth screwed up
around a long thin nose, a nose that looked suddenly very familiar. Abernathy
gasped.
"Wallace
Kindermass!" he exclaimed.
The tall man looked stunned.
He drew back and took in the little figure before him: Abernathy's clothes,
ruined but fancy; his figure small, but upright.
"A man," he
breathed, mouth gaping to show black, broken teeth. "After all these
years, another human man."
The little agent gulped,
then stepped forward, and thrust his hand out.
"Ambrose
Abernathy," he said. "Of the Department of Extranatural Affairs. I'm
glad to meet you, Mr. Kindermass."
"I thought I'd never
see another human in this life," the other said, his face squeezing into a
pained smile, tears flowing from his squinting eyes. "But what are you
doing here? You are in great danger. You've got to flee!"
"I wish I could,"
said Abernathy. "But damned if I know how. I came in through the wardrobe
and it closed behind me."
"Me too, me too!"
the other nodded. "How long ago it seems!"
"Your eldest sister
said it's been almost twenty years."
"Twenty years! And
Sylvia is still alive?"
"And your other
sisters," said Abernathy hurriedly. "But that can wait for now! Don't
you know any other way out of here?"
"None." The other
slumped backwards. "Oh, I tried to escape in the early years, but SHE put
a stop to my wandering quick enough."
"She?"
"She who keeps me here.
She who holds me prisoner. She who steals my substance to breed this race of
... of horrors!" Kindermass pointed venomously at Trey, who cowered under
the accusation. He turned back to Abernathy. "She who will surely capture
you when she learns of your presence!"
"Where?" Abernathy
looked around nervously. "Where is this She?"
"Through that
tunnel," Kindermass said, pointing to the hole where the gangrel pack had
fled. "Oh run, man! You haven't much time!"
"Come with me,"
the agent said, and held out his hand. "We can get out of here together,
sir."
The other laughed bitterly.
"If it was that easy,
don't you think I'd have left long ago? Look, look here," he said,
gesturing Abernathy closer.
The agent drew nearer to
where the shaggy, bent figure stood in the dim blue halo of crystalline light,
then gasped and drew back in dismay. Kindermass's almost skeletal legs were
knotted through by pale quivering tentacles, going in and out of the scrawny
flesh, that attached him to the cave floor like alien roots.
"What ... what happened
to you?"
"I was drawn down a
shining tunnel that suddenly appeared in my wardrobe, ever downward into the
earth, until I came upon Her! She had lured me into the lair where she had
dwelt for thousands of years, and I, poor fool, the first man ever to fall for
her wiles!"
Abernathy's eyes boggled.
"Are you telling me
there is a centuries-old woman living in this cave?"
Kindermass cackled
obscenely.
"A woman only by
analogy, only by simile. This ... this shapeless thing stole my essence, my
seed, and when it ensnared my family's poor bitches from the world above, it
harvested their germens and mingled them together to create in the blasphemous matrix
of Her abnormal body these ... these monstrosities!" He brought his
battered knuckles down in sudden anger on Trey's skull. The creature whimpered
in pain and cowered under the assault.
"She brews inside her
foul innards a milk, like a female, but it is merely water and lime and fungus.
This is what she feeds me on to keep me alive, me and these...these freaks!
These half-breeds!" The ragged old man seemed suddenly transported with
rage, bringing his hand down again and again on the dog-man's head and back.
"Here! Here, now!"
Abernathy said, grabbing the withered arms and trying to get between the two.
"Violence won't help. If what you say is true, the poor beast is in some
misbegotten way your own son!"
Kindermass collapsed in his
grip.
"Do not remind
me," he sobbed. "The shame! The shame..."
"Pull yourself
together, man," the little agent said, shaken. "What we've got to do
now is ..."
Whatever he thought they had
to do was quickly rendered moot. There was a sudden touch at his ankle, and he
was pulled backward off his feet, falling slap-down on the wet, spongy floor.
He lifted himself up on slippery hands, face trailing slime, and looked around.
While he had been distracted
with Kindermass and the hapless Trey, several long tentacles had snaked out of
the further cavern opening, oozing silently to where he stood. They gleamed
wetly in the dim rock-light. One was already twining around his leg, while
another raised up like a questing cobra, seeking for a further grip. Before he
could break out of his fascinated horror, it lashed out and grabbed his wrist.
"Momma!" Trey
yapped happily. "Momma will help brudder Natty!"
"Resist, sir,
resist!" howled Kindermass.
"I'm trying, I'm
trying!" Abernathy yelled. But he was being pulled along, hopping on one
leg, unbalanced, the dog-man bounding enthusiastically at his heels. The last
he saw of Kindermass as he was dragged into the low cave-mouth was the skeletal
bearded wretch slumping backward in his rags, the waning blue phosphorescence
highlighting his despairing face.
Wednesday, October 23, 2024
"Just Another Dirty Gray Day"
I have to apologize for not having any regular content today, no LOTR coverage, no short story segment, not even a recycled diary entry. I can only say that I am tired, tired from going across the street to participate in early voting(which is not a far journey but entails a lot more standing and waiting than my legs will usually allow) and mentally tired from thinking of what I'll have to do in the next few days to get supplies to last me until the end of the month, and depressed from so many melancholy anniversaries. Also my Ozempic is late, though my pharmacy has continued to assure me that it is due "in 1-2 days" for the last week. I may be able to put together some kind of post later today, but for right now -- nu-uh.