Thursday, October 31, 2024

Our Three Childhood Prayers

 




The 'Come Lord Jesus' grace before meals is the translation of an old Lutheran prayer in German: " Komm, Herr Jesu; sei du unser Gast; und segne, was du uns besecheret hast". It may have come down to us from Pop's side of the family. I always wondered what would have happened if Jesus suddenly was our guest; would our scant meals stretch to another at table? I never considered that He could miraculously multiply the fried chicken and cheese noodles. We never actually prayed the 'Angel of God' prayer, but it always hung on one of the back bedroom walls and was never taken down, even in the JW years. I have the plate even now, safely tucked away, not sure if I could hang it securely. 'Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep' was of course in the cultural air, even repeated in several old cartoons.
An alternate grace before meals:


Though we always used interlaced fingers, not steeples.

Edgar ... Allan ... Booooo!!: October 2019


10/27/2019: Up about 5:30 AM. Prayed, catechism, Bible. Showered, dressed, (coat and vest; it was 44 degrees), then off at 7 AM. When I was crossing by the bank, I was surprised by a greeting from a little old lady passing me by, also on the way to church. Church pretty full today; it was a school function, so not only kids but also their relatives. After Mass, got some holy water. Walked over and bought some tea, which I had just enough money to do. Came back home, limping rather, and drenched in sweat, as it was now warming up.  Ate breakfast/lunch. Reading Poe's letters, where he is undergoing an all too familiar struggle to financially survive his youth and then scrabbling to make his way in the literary world, which turns out to be far more personal than we expect. Took a rather long nap. At about 3:30 PM go in the house and Susan gives me Pumpkin Delights, pecan pies, and bananas. At 4:30 PM watch "Saints vs. Scoundrels", the second half of the St. Maximillian Kolbe and Josef Goebbels one. A little after 5 PM am disturbed by a bunch of yelling in the neighborhood. What could it be?

Spent the evening reading some more Poe, then quit. Tried watching a few videos on Poe on YT. Po' old Poe. Only 40 when he died. His struggle to make a living by writing reminds me only too much of Mike ... and his quest to find love, and the seeking relief in drink and drugs, and the compromises with the dirty devices of the world, and the constant rejection of what he had to offer. And the weird, vicious humor that animates his writing, not always acknowledged by his readers; Mike shares that too.

Blah. I'm too full of bananas; I ate five this evening. My poor legs. They seem to just be getting worse. Does it herald worse circulation, warn me of perhaps a fatal heart disfunction coming on? Perhaps; it wouldn't surprise me. And what can I do about it, my conditions being what they are?

 

10/28/2019: Up a little after 5 AM; prayer, catechism, Bible. Got some writing done: Jocasta’s interview with Trager.

 

At 9 AM started the wash. Got the stuff to make Kameron a sausage patty and scrambled eggs, took them in, and then he tells me he only wants an apple! He eats some of the sausage and gives me the rest (I had already fried myself up a couple of patties to eat on a sandwich). Call Andy and confirm; no chicken salad today, so that's less work I have. Got Kam off at 10:25 AM, swept porch, changed load, and went in. Connection had been good all morning to listen to Gilbert Gottfried. At noon went off to get wash and S&A were there, cleaning Babe's rug (the last inside cat); her peeing is not getting into the box anymore. Connection poops out at 12:20 PM, coinciding with caution beeps going off throughout the land, so I expect construction is back on (it was damp and cloudy all morning). October is really zipping by now.

Between 1 and 2 PM I made the broccoli salad; yes, it takes at least an hour to prepare. Between 2 and 3:20 PM I was able to finish my YouTube shows; I keep thinking about setting down to write again but feel not the slightest inclination, if also an urge to finish Aunt Jocasta before Halloween. Grass dogs, feed pets, and start supper (fish rolls and couscous, again). Kam comes home just a little later (say 4:30 PM) than usual. I, having eaten my salad while waiting, take my couscous back to my house and prepare it with a cup of noodles. Having started Dracula after abandoning Poe, I decide to drop that after reaching the end of Harker's first adventure. 'Tis strange, but I always consider Poe as being older than me; probably from when I first read him as a boy, when his experience seemed to make him centuries older. Now that I realize he was only forty, he seems almost a brat. After the death of his beloved Virginia, he was wooing about THREE different ladies at the same time. Well, he certainly seems to have lived more life than I ever have in so short a life.

Looked back in my diary for today in 2018. I was writing Sergeant Roth. Wow. That seems a forever ago. I was still waiting for the editor to get back to me about AGODP.

From John:  I know what you mean regarding Poe - both in terms of his Mike-ishness and his relative age. I had a dream the other morning with Mike in it- I don't remember any of the details except that he had been trying to get me to go along with some scheme or another and was putting on his full charm offensive.  I decided against it, and immediately his mask fell and he turned hateful and vindictive - an occurrence that happened more than once for real- and it reminded me of that side of Mike - just a hurtful outrageous selfishness- usually the more nasty activities would bring it out of him.  A complicated, sometimes surprisingly mysterious person.  I guess it is healthier to consider the good and bad in everyone, ourselves included- painful though it can be, and know we are all weak and stupid about certain subjects and fall prey to making dumb mistakes. There would be no need for God's mercy otherwise.

Me: And I know what you mean about Mike. But then the dead all seem mysterious, once they are dead. When they are alive, they appear so obvious. They are what they are, and you think they are plain as pikestaffs, and then you find hints (sometimes from other people who saw other facets of them) that there are hidden corners you never thought to question, or perhaps never dared to, or that perhaps just couldn't be expressed. I suppose we all carry mysteries like that to our graves. "For now we see as in a mirror darkly, but then we shall see face to face; now I know in part, but then I shall know and also be known." I know I have some rotten shabby corners. I suppose we'll all look at each other pretty sheepishly, ask forgiveness, forgive, have a good laugh, and then forget all about it. Mike appears in my dreams in pretty dubious and desperate situations, but seldom angry. In fact, in one he seemed rather pleased with my book. You appeared in my dreams lately: I was being chased by bears and you and Joey popped up over the brow of a hill with guns and started shooting them.

John:  That's true about the dead, isn't it? I guess you try to put people into some kind of totality in your mind, to file them away, like we do all things that are past, but being multidimensional beings, they resist such easy categorization, and we are seeing them, really for the first time in a way. I dream of Mike a lot, a couple of times a week, most weeks- and he arrives in many different moods and modes, sometimes really great, sometimes like the other day's dream. I've dreamt of having arguments with Mom and Pop that were rough, too - more so than I ever had with them in life. What exactly is that about, I wonder? Unresolved issues, I guess. Sigh.

 

10/29/2019: Up about 6:30 AM, got dressed, prayers, catechism, Bible. Made ramen. Settled down to write and got the kitchen scene with Greta done. Kam called (Susan had taken him to the dentist) at 9:40 AM and asked me to start breakfast; fried him some bacon and scrambled eggs. They got here a little after 10 AM and he went out to wait for the bus at 10:20 AM, and I with him. When done, locked up the house, made lunch ramen, and said a Rosary. Now 12:20 PM, connectivity is bad, and I'm thinking about laying down for a nap. Weather coolish, but calm, a little drippy. Rosary.

So at 2 PM I made a sausage patty sandwich (microwaved it too hard) and some popcorn, in the big house as I'm too cowardly to use mine after it sparked that day. At 4PM I grassed and fed and started supper (sausages and cabbage and taters). Kam home at 4:30 PM. He called me at 7 PM to grass the chis again, and get him: a patty, Tx toast, and 2 corn dogs. He said S&A had gone to a wedding, and I saw the supper was untouched. I am going in at 9 PM to put it away, or at least get it ready to put away when they get home, leaving it out warm in case they want to eat.

To John:  As I mentioned I am working on a new short story, "Aunt Jocasta", based on a dream I had many years ago. I am hoping to have it done by Halloween, and I hope I haven't just jinxed it by mentioning the fact. I don't know what it is about deadlines that holds me in a dread fixation as they approach, like a bird paralyzed in the gaze of an approaching serpent. At least I have been pecking away at the tale for the last few days, forcing myself down to it, and feel some confidence in the story as I proceed. I have a suspicion that I surround the writing process with a bunch of conditions and taboos and "feels", just as lazy excuses not to do it. Generally when I do apply myself, I have quite a good time doing it, so why the reluctance?

Don't know if it's the weather or the season or what, but I find myself skipping and cackling and popping off Tourette's-like quotes and voices, often in an excess of nervousness. Nervous ... yes, I am very nervous, but why do you insist on calling me mad? Just because I'm seeing moving shadows in glass doors that fall from nowhere, and now with the fans off I hear every little creak and pop and unidentifiable scuffle from outside, and, yes, from inside as well? This is not insanity, but the sudden awakening from a foolish sleep! Wait ... there! There at the window! The three-lobed burning eye of madness! Aiyeeeeee ....!

We now return you to your regularly scheduled program.

 

10/30/2019: Up at 4 AM, and between getting dressed, prayers, catechism, Bible, breakfast, making Kameron’s breakfast at 4 AM, getting him on his way at 10:20 AM, wrote nine pages by 11 AM. Day cold and drippy; had to take towel in and out of the house to keep my shoes clean.

Took a nap until two and made a sausage patty sandwich for lunch; mayonnaise is really too salty to go with the sausage. Popped some corn. Day still cold and cloudy but not so wet. Feel that I'm in a good march of the end of AJ. Heard and saw the yearly flock of crows pass over the back yard.

Blah, blah, and so on. Reheated stuff for supper. Had a leftover sausage at 8 PM when I cleaned up, and they gave me a roll from Whataburger. Rosary. Bed at 10 PM.

 

10/31/2019: Halloween. Up at 3 AM, wrote down dream, started writing on AJ. Dressed, prayed, catechism and Bible at intervals, and by 7:30 wrote "Happy Halloween, Aunt Jocasta". I am a short coda away from being done with the first draft. Pausing to eat.

Wrote the coda; sent copies to John and Kenny a little before 9 AM. Peeled Kameron's apple at 9 AM. Now making myself some stuffing. The day is bright and clear, just as I predicted for Halloween in AJ before the sun even rose. I am in that happy little handful of hours where I don't feel obliged to work on any writing. Went in at 10 AM and got Kam off to school, after standing with him near at the end of the driveway. Came in, cleaned up, and now it's 11 AM and time for a nap.

John replied at 2:19 PM: Ah! Now it feels like Halloween! Well done, indeed.  Reminds me of Bradbury in his ghoulish mode! Of course being a fiendish fan of such concoctions, I deduced the twist; but the buildup and payoff was masterfully constructed- and the bit of Samuel's offing Greta did surprise me nicely- a gruesome sauce on top! Thanks for the Halloween inspiration! 🎃

About 7 PM Andy brought me out the traditional Halloween Sonic corn dogs - 4 of them, with a bunch of mustard. Yummy! Rosary, and early to bed.

Spent the day with no writing. At 3 PM grassed and fed animals, then waited on the porch reading for Kam to get home. He came at 4:30 PM and I took all the broccoli salad for supper and turned in. About 7 PM while I was saying the rosary Andy came in, gave me the rest of the pecan pies, and said I could have some of the stew from his dad's party. I said tomorrow. I went to bed about 9 PM.




 

Wednesday, October 30, 2024

Wideo Wednesday: Halloween

 


Well, the last Wideo Wednesday before Halloween, so here are some classics for viewing, from the funny to the squamous. We start with Betty Boop's Halloween Party, which I have to admit I never saw as a child; Betty Boop wasn't really shown then in these parts (in fact black and white cartoons  were considered too old-fashioned for kids to be interested in). What we did like was Mad Mad Mad Monsters  (1972) by Rankin/Bass, part of The Saturday Superstar Movies. Out that same year was Gargoyles, the very first made-for-TV movie. We felt the desert setting was close enough to our Texas milieu to warrant another layer of verisimilitude, especially driving along the highway at night. Old movies that we watched later were two black and white silent films released the same year (1922): Nosferatu and Haxan (I prefer to watch Haxan in a later dub, narrated by William S. Burroughs - it adds another layer of synchronous horror to hear his dry, matter-of-fact tones). From Nosferatu we derived a family superstition, never to say the name aloud, especially after dark, a superstition that has been handed down to the next generation. Happy All Hallows' Eve viewing!

Betty Boop's Halloween Party
 
The Mad Mad Mad Monsters

Gargoyles

Haxan

Nosferatu


Monday, October 28, 2024

An Explanation That Does Not Explain Much, But Does Apologize

 


Last week was very tiring for me; I feel it yet and there is more to come. I'm afraid the next few days will be too time and energy draining for me to post very regularly, or on my usual subjects. I may put something up, if it does not require too much work or editing. I imagine that by Thursday I should be back on track. 

Sunday, October 27, 2024

John and J. R. R.

 


[A while back when I recorded my brother John's collection of Tolkien, I asked him for a short essay on what Tolkien meant in his life. Here it is.]

J. R. R. Tolkien, what he means to me, or how I have taken some part of his poetically visionary construction and danced with it in a nourishing artistic symbiosis. That’s right I love him. His mythic vision of a world where the deepest parts of ourselves are personified and play-acted in a semi-religious fairy tale has been a guide and a balm for me as I’ve navigated the greater part of my time on this planet. Yes, he is cool as hell, and I’ve been in love with his shit since I was a kid. His stories beat them all. Planet of the Apes. Star Trek. Star Wars. The great gods of young male adventure lovers. For me, Tolkien stories beat them all in every possible metric for appreciative attention.

The beasts, the battles, the bad guys – the stories rang with the authority of the Old Testament and the blood and thunder of the Grimmest of fairy tales. But more than that, the sheer poetic grandness of Middle-earth and all its inhabitants and eras swept me a reframing of my own world view. I saw the romance of nature – moon cycles, whispering trees, foamy waves, blazing sunsets, all through the lens of Tolkien’s painter’s eye. I appreciated my own world more after reading about his. What perfect art! From the start the stories hinted at a deeper more foundational understanding of a mortal’s navigation through his time of strutting and fretting. The promise of that deeper understanding was well-founded as I have experienced a maturing admiration for the more existential aspect of the spirit of Middle-earth and its stories.

I still really love his shit, but in a truer, more profound way than before. It has been both gratifying and nauseating to see the supernova of appreciation for Tolkien’s works in the last couple of decades. The decadence of the defilers who bought and abused the myth as a mere IP is a parasitic nuisance, the barnacles that have attached themselves to the whale of the Tolkien legacy, the cost of swimming in the culture’s waters. Still, it is painful to both have to know what’s being done and then to actually see it being done. Like watching a dear friend get beat down in public.

Still, I remain optimistic about the road ahead for my dear dance with the spirit of Middle-earth. No matter what, the original The Hobbit, The Lord of the Rings, The Silmarillion are still here for us on demand. We have the most profound, life-affirming narrative that has ever been conceived and executed, this side of William Shakespeare. Only more so. There, I said it. Yes, I know the great original stories, and they have good bones.

Saturday, October 26, 2024

Wideo Weekend: Count Dracula

 


Every Halloween the old debate about which is the best adaptation of Dracula comes around. If one is of a certain generation, they might list the Lugosi or Lee incarnations; younger folks might choose the Langella or Oldman films. But the best adaptation by far was the BBC’s Count Dracula (1977), starring Louis Jordan as the Count.

Originally airing on the BBC in December 1977, in the United States, Count Dracula was shown as part of PBS's Great Performances anthology series in three parts starting March 1, 1978, and later on Halloween, October 31, 1979. I believe we caught at least some of that March airing, which assured us it was worthy of remembrance. That Halloween of 1979 we were determined to record it on audio tape.

I myself could not be there; it was decreed that I must journey with Mom to Nanny’s house in San Marcos to work on some of her interminable paperwork. I was uncomfortable about being abroad on the spooky night, especially at Nanny’s House of Horror, which at night seemed a likely stage for some kind of atrocity. But go I must.

It was up to John to man the tape recorder, flipping the tape when necessary and maintaining complete silence while recording. A task which he accomplished with great skill, even adding in husky tones when all was said and done that “Van Helsing was played by Frank Finlay.”


I have to say Finlay is certainly the best Van Helsing I’ve ever seen, absolutely the closest to how Bram Stoker wrote him. We had very definite ideas about how things should be, having read the magisterial The Annotated Dracula by Leonard Wolf by then. I had no illusions about the Count as a romantic figure (a mistake that many movies seem to make), and the adaptation took the religious content as seriously the original. We played the audio over and over, and I was particularly haunted by the end credit music.



I was certainly pleased when I found a DVD of the show, and the entirety of it can be found here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpKhF4Ts_6k

The acting is first-rate, though the special effects might seem a little dated and obviously stagey now and then. But if you can suspend your disbelief in those moments, you will find Count Dracula a haunting and even gruesome tale, well worth viewing on a smoky October night.

Time for another cup of cocoa.


Friday, October 25, 2024

Friday Fiction: The Case of Ambrose Abernathy (Part Six and Last)


     Then the agent felt himself trip and fall, and he was drawn sliding through a long, dark, slippery tunnel downward. For one headlong, disorienting moment all thought except fear fled from his mind; then he was pulled tumbling out into an open space on a trail squelching ooze. He could feel the tentacles let go of his limbs. He sat up, clothes soaked, and tried to wipe his dripping face clear.

     Trey came sliding out behind him, bumping his back, jostling him down into the muck again. The creature scrambled up and ran ahead, yelping "Milk! Milk! Milk!" The words echoed in a cavernous space.

     Abernathy rubbed his eyes clear, blowing the trailing mucus from his mustache, spitting the foul drainage from his mouth. When he had finally caught his breath, he looked up, squinting, trying to make sense of his surroundings, and was struck dumb in trepidation and wonder.

     He was in an enormous space, like an underground cathedral, or amphitheater. Huge pillars, where stalactites dripped down to meet stalagmites, ringed the vast room, the slick flowstone leading downward to the bottom of the bowl. There, by a ghastly pale green light, seemingly shed by itself, lay a pulsating mound that his mind struggled to understand.

     He stood up on shaking legs. At his feet lay the mucid tentacles, slowly withdrawing towards the glowing mass. He followed them with tottering, unsure steps, afraid to draw near the inchoate mass but feeling unable to do anything else, pulled forward by gravity and fascination and a deep sense that here at last was the heart of the mystery.

     The first thing he could make out clearly was the litter of dog-men, lying in a bulky throng around a central, shapeless pile of rough globes. He saw Trey, his slobbering mouth attached to one of the globes, eagerly sucking out a pale liquid that dribbled out the sides of his jowls. Every now and then he murmured ecstatically, "Milk. milk." Even as he crept nearer, Abernathy saw him grow sleepy and slow, falling into a dozing stupor like his brood-mates. The sound of their whizzing breath filled the air. The dog-men snuggled up to the bumpy mass as if it were a pillow. The agent drew nearer, eyes darting, trying to locate this dreaded She that he knew must be near.

     Abruptly, as if he had entered some unmarked sphere of influence, a voice bloomed on his inner ear. It was neither male nor female, but it rang in his mind in husky, alien tones, overwhelming his own conscious dialog. He winced under its onslaught, panicking at the impact of its words.

     Welcome, husband, it said.

     "Where are you?" he squawked out loud, looking around wildly, trying to locate the source of the voice. "Show yourself!"

     I am here, it said. All around. I have been here, forever. And now you shall be too, and our children shall conquer the overworld, and then I shall be there too, forever.

     "Never!" Abernathy shrieked, climbing the pile, still searching for the speaker. He felt that, trapped and unarmed as he was, he would in his new panic still try to tear this thing apart, with his bare hands if he had to, rather than suffer Kindermass's fate. His eyes darted around desperately. "Where are you?"

     You stand on me.

     The agent looked wildly down at his feet. The warty, globular mass he had been treading was already extruding new groping tentacles from its glimmering bulk.

     Only his immediate instinctive terror saved him. He jumped backward off the sloping pile, scuttering down the mound of bubbling lumps and through the congeries of sleepily complaining dog-things, who whimpered at his passing. The tentacles followed swiftly, questing blindly for his flesh.

     He tried to rush up the slimy slopes to escape back through the tunnel, but slid down, defeated by gravity and his own weakness. The tentacles advanced on him, slow but inexorable. He turned and limped away from their progress, exhausted, panicked, blindly seeking another exit in the dimness of the peripheries of the cave.

     As he turned to gauge his pursuer's approach, he stumbled over something in the dark, sending him headlong to the ground. His skull rang with the jolt and his battered limbs blazed with pain. He turned and half-sat up, dazed, looking back. In the growing green light of the oncoming tentacles, he saw what had tripped his steps.

     It was the now battered and beslimed bulk of his lost case kit.

     He looked up instinctively and saw, far above in the roof of the cavern directly over the heap, the pale dot of light, where, distant from these nightmare caves, the clean dawning of the sun must be illuminating the mouth of the well. The falling case had rebounded away to this spot. He had only a fraction of a second to grab it before the tentacles had seized him. They began reeling him back to the knobby mass, which was now writhing and heaving in apparent anticipation.

     Abernathy fumbled the case open and began scrabbling among its contents. The first thing that came to his hand was the athema, the mystic knife, wound with incantations and marked with signs of power. He drew it from its sheath and lashed visciously at the knotty tendrils that held him.

     The blade rebounded harmlessly off the rubbery flesh. The tentacles never paused. He stared incredulously, then tried sawing frantically away at the binding arms. It was like cutting a boarding-house roast. In frustration he brought the knife down once more in a hacking blow. It bounced off, stinging his hand, and went ringing off into the darkness.

     By now he had been dragged back to the rim of the mass. The dog-men had awakened, alerted by the increased activity of their eldritch mother. They churned around it, baffled, excited, crying softly to each other. But they all started yelping and trying to run away when Abernathy drew out the pistol and shot six silver bullets wildly into the mass at their middle.

     The shots sank harmlessly into the semi-gelatinous body. For a moment it drew in, like a snail wincing, then it expanded eagerly.

     Ah, silver, it said in his head. I have not had this sustenance in many years. I thank you for this wedding gift, my husband. He was dragged in closer to the central mass at the top of the monster. To his horror he saw a muculent maw opening there, ready to welcome his unwilling flesh.

     Abernathy went wild. He began throwing the contents of the kit at the creature in a frenzy, willy-nilly, whatever came to his hand. The thing's tentacles, as if excited and aroused by all the activity, grasped and batted at the objects as they pelted its impervious hide. The Bible was torn in pieces, the salt bag exploded by a swat, the bottle of rum crushed like an egg in one squeezing arm. The five-pointed star rebounded uselessly off the thing's knurled skin.

     There was one last thing in the case. He seized the ball-like object blindly and hurled it toward the maw. It was intercepted by one frenzied, coiling arm. Abernathy had one second to recognize the bomb before the tentacle contracted, squeezing the plunger, and the world was filled with roaring flaming light that lifted him toward the roof of the cavern, and he knew no more.

 

     "They found me, they say, almost a mile from the Kindermass farm, unconscious, naked, bruised, my hair burned off, but somehow still alive," the quivering, bandaged little man concluded. "There was no way to tell who I was. I was brought here, a charity case, and when I woke up, I called for you. I had to tell you, to warn you ..." He choked.

     Frobisher patted the agent again, his old hand light as a leaf.

     "There, there," he said. "We've got your report now." He leaned back and his face creased in a wrinkled smile. "And congratulations! You've had your first successful case. Do you still feel like leaving the Bureau?"

     Abernathy's eyes boggled behind his wrappings.

     "Well...no..." he stammered. "But that monster...the danger to the world..."

     "Probably minimal, considering you seem to have blown the thing up," Frobisher concluded. He began to bring himself creakily to his feet. He looked over at the secretary, who was folding up his papers. "Any observations, Mr. Williams?"

     "Only that I read in the papers some time ago that the Kindermass farm was engulfed in a massive sinkhole," he said briskly. He did up the final latch of the casebook. "The sisters and their pet escaped just in time. As Mr. Abernathy had been on the case at the time, I sent an agent to check on the site, but he found nothing unusual." He reached down to the prostrate agent and shook his hand. "I had my dreadful doubts as to your survival, but regulations require a year to pass before I inform the Director officially. Again, congratulations, sir! You have surpassed all my expectations."

     "But ... but we must make sure..."

     "Relax and recuperate, Ambrose," Frobisher said expansively, stretching his back and taking up his cane. "It's all taken care of. We'll be getting you moved to a better hospital soon." He looked around at the cacophonous bedlam of poor patients who had now awakened and were clamoring for the noon-day meal. "I'm sure you could use the peace and quiet.”

     "But, sir, I..."

     "Good-bye, Abernathy." The old Director lifted his hand and waved over his head, he and the secretary already well on their way out.

     Abernathy lay back and closed his eyes, weary with telling his tale. Perhaps I should just rest, he thought, giving up. It's out of my hands now. He tried to relax and ignore the babble of voices and the sound of none too delicate feeding around him.

     He might have drifted off, if it weren't for the sudden squabble in the far corner of the room. A new patient was refusing the offer of the watery potato soup the sister was trying to feed him.

     "Don't want it, nope, nope," came a familiar voice. "Milk, milk, milk!"

     Abernathy sat bolt upright, screaming.

 

--August 28, 2017 to April 13,2018

Thursday, October 24, 2024

The Case of Ambrose Abernathy (Part Five)

 


"Here, here!" said Trey huskily. "This Poppa's room. Quiet now! Shh!"

          As short as he was, the agent had to get down on all fours to squeeze in. His trouser knees joined his now-tattered socks in being soaked by the dripping slimy floor, and as worn as the rocks were, he managed to snag and tear them, bloodying his kneecaps. Once inside he stood up groaning loudly, much to the alarm of Trey and the squirming horde that followed them impulsively behind.

          "Sh! Sh!" susurrated huskily through the little chamber, with frightened glances at a shadowy corner. Most of the beasts started scattering immediately to the door on the other side of the room, flowing like water past the disoriented little man. He almost went to his knees again with the pattering pressure. Only Trey's grasping clutch on Abernathy's shoulder kept the bewildered agent upright. But he was nearly knocked down in the panicked exodus that ensued when a loud angry voice from the shadowy corner yelled out, "Here! What disturbs my sleep?"

          In a twinkling the beasts had scrambled out and away, yelping, all except Trey, who stood cringing and whimpering, Abernathy's shoulder pinched cruelly in the reflexive grip of his black claws. Abernathy himself might have followed after them, if it weren't for that. He watched in dread fascination as the tall shadowy figure hunched and scrabbled in the darkness. There was the crack and flare of another crystal, and the hairy and horrible figure of the thing was revealed.

          It was tall but bent, with bloody red eyes and matted, grizzled brown hair that tangled into a trailing, filthy beard. It was dressed in hanging, rotten rags. Its entire countenance was drawn down in a frown, burly black eyebrows and pinched mouth screwed up around a long thin nose, a nose that looked suddenly very familiar. Abernathy gasped.

          "Wallace Kindermass!" he exclaimed.

          The tall man looked stunned. He drew back and took in the little figure before him: Abernathy's clothes, ruined but fancy; his figure small, but upright.

          "A man," he breathed, mouth gaping to show black, broken teeth. "After all these years, another human man."

          The little agent gulped, then stepped forward, and thrust his hand out.

          "Ambrose Abernathy," he said. "Of the Department of Extranatural Affairs. I'm glad to meet you, Mr. Kindermass."

          "I thought I'd never see another human in this life," the other said, his face squeezing into a pained smile, tears flowing from his squinting eyes. "But what are you doing here? You are in great danger. You've got to flee!"

          "I wish I could," said Abernathy. "But damned if I know how. I came in through the wardrobe and it closed behind me."

          "Me too, me too!" the other nodded. "How long ago it seems!"

          "Your eldest sister said it's been almost twenty years."

          "Twenty years! And Sylvia is still alive?"

          "And your other sisters," said Abernathy hurriedly. "But that can wait for now! Don't you know any other way out of here?"

          "None." The other slumped backwards. "Oh, I tried to escape in the early years, but SHE put a stop to my wandering quick enough."

          "She?"

          "She who keeps me here. She who holds me prisoner. She who steals my substance to breed this race of ... of horrors!" Kindermass pointed venomously at Trey, who cowered under the accusation. He turned back to Abernathy. "She who will surely capture you when she learns of your presence!"

          "Where?" Abernathy looked around nervously. "Where is this She?"

          "Through that tunnel," Kindermass said, pointing to the hole where the gangrel pack had fled. "Oh run, man! You haven't much time!"

          "Come with me," the agent said, and held out his hand. "We can get out of here together, sir."

          The other laughed bitterly.

          "If it was that easy, don't you think I'd have left long ago? Look, look here," he said, gesturing Abernathy closer.

          The agent drew nearer to where the shaggy, bent figure stood in the dim blue halo of crystalline light, then gasped and drew back in dismay. Kindermass's almost skeletal legs were knotted through by pale quivering tentacles, going in and out of the scrawny flesh, that attached him to the cave floor like alien roots.

          "What ... what happened to you?"

          "I was drawn down a shining tunnel that suddenly appeared in my wardrobe, ever downward into the earth, until I came upon Her! She had lured me into the lair where she had dwelt for thousands of years, and I, poor fool, the first man ever to fall for her wiles!"

          Abernathy's eyes boggled.

          "Are you telling me there is a centuries-old woman living in this cave?"

          Kindermass cackled obscenely.

          "A woman only by analogy, only by simile. This ... this shapeless thing stole my essence, my seed, and when it ensnared my family's poor bitches from the world above, it harvested their germens and mingled them together to create in the blasphemous matrix of Her abnormal body these ... these monstrosities!" He brought his battered knuckles down in sudden anger on Trey's skull. The creature whimpered in pain and cowered under the assault.

          "She brews inside her foul innards a milk, like a female, but it is merely water and lime and fungus. This is what she feeds me on to keep me alive, me and these...these freaks! These half-breeds!" The ragged old man seemed suddenly transported with rage, bringing his hand down again and again on the dog-man's head and back.

          "Here! Here, now!" Abernathy said, grabbing the withered arms and trying to get between the two. "Violence won't help. If what you say is true, the poor beast is in some misbegotten way your own son!"

          Kindermass collapsed in his grip.

          "Do not remind me," he sobbed. "The shame! The shame..."

          "Pull yourself together, man," the little agent said, shaken. "What we've got to do now is ..."

          Whatever he thought they had to do was quickly rendered moot. There was a sudden touch at his ankle, and he was pulled backward off his feet, falling slap-down on the wet, spongy floor. He lifted himself up on slippery hands, face trailing slime, and looked around.

          While he had been distracted with Kindermass and the hapless Trey, several long tentacles had snaked out of the further cavern opening, oozing silently to where he stood. They gleamed wetly in the dim rock-light. One was already twining around his leg, while another raised up like a questing cobra, seeking for a further grip. Before he could break out of his fascinated horror, it lashed out and grabbed his wrist.

          "Momma!" Trey yapped happily. "Momma will help brudder Natty!"

          "Resist, sir, resist!" howled Kindermass.

          "I'm trying, I'm trying!" Abernathy yelled. But he was being pulled along, hopping on one leg, unbalanced, the dog-man bounding enthusiastically at his heels. The last he saw of Kindermass as he was dragged into the low cave-mouth was the skeletal bearded wretch slumping backward in his rags, the waning blue phosphorescence highlighting his despairing face.


Wednesday, October 23, 2024

"Just Another Dirty Gray Day"

I have to apologize for not having any regular content today, no LOTR coverage, no short story segment, not even a recycled diary entry. I can only say that I am tired, tired from going across the street to participate in early voting(which is not a far journey but entails a lot more standing and waiting than my legs will usually allow) and mentally tired from thinking of what I'll have to do in the next few days to get supplies to last me until the end of the month, and depressed from so many melancholy anniversaries. Also my Ozempic is late, though my pharmacy has continued to assure me that it is due "in 1-2 days" for the last week. I may be able to put together some kind of post later today, but for right now -- nu-uh.