Thursday, January 29, 2026

Thursday Thoughts: It's Complicated


“The "mind-brain problem" is the deep philosophical and scientific question of how our subjective mental experiences (thoughts, feelings, consciousness) arise from or relate to the physical matter and electrical activity of the brain, essentially asking if the intangible mind is just the brain's function or something separate. It grapples with the "hard problem of consciousness" — how physical neurons create qualitative feelings like the redness of red — with perspectives ranging from physicalism (mind is brain activity) to dualism (mind and brain are distinct).

Key Aspects of the Problem

  • The "What It's Like" Factor

How does brain activity translate into the private, first-person experience of being you (e.g., the feeling of sadness, the taste of coffee?).

  • Causation

When you decide to move your arm, does your immaterial "mind" cause the brain's physical action, or is it all just brain processes?

  • Subjectivity vs. Objectivity

Brains can be studied objectively (neurons firing), but subjective experiences remain private and inaccessible to external observation.

Main Philosophical Stances

The mind is entirely a product of the brain; mental states are brain states (neurons, synapses, chemicals).

Mind and body (brain) are fundamentally different substances—one physical, the other non-physical (like a soul).

Reality is ultimately mental; the physical world, including the brain, is a manifestation of mind.

Why It Matters

  • Medicine & Psychiatry: Impacts understanding mental health, trauma, and disorders, as noted in psychiatric journals.
  • Artificial Intelligence: Challenges whether true consciousness can ever be replicated in machines.
  • Human Nature: Shapes our understanding of self, free will, and our place in the physical universe.

In essence, the mind-brain problem highlights the gap between the measurable physical world of the brain and the felt, lived world of conscious experience, a mystery scientists and philosophers continue to explore." - AI Summation

Where Does Your Mind Actually Exist?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_GyGXW-gAs



 

Wednesday, January 28, 2026

Steve Chimes In


Steve Donoghue: What Will Happen to My Books?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PEXy3K0A8U

Steve believes those other booktubers believe in an afterlife because of their upbringing; he doesn’t seem to realize that what he believes in what his upbringing has led him to believe (no afterlife); he more or less admits it but doesn’t seem to realize it. He does make good points about the mortality of personal libraries, though. You can’t expect anyone to keep all your books; the personal sun of that solar system is gone and the planets go flying off. Perhaps a moon or two will be captured in another orbit as a keepsake, but that could be the most you could hope for.

Steve is rather coy and jokey about death and aging; he gives the appearance of not caring but I think that may be a cover-up for darker thoughts, a bit of a tap dance to keep himself distracted from the terror of the grave. I could be wrong, and I’m sure he would deny it, but still …


January 28th: Feast Day of St. Thomas Aquinas


So today is the Feast Day of St. Thomas Aquinas, the guy I chose as my patron saint when I was baptized in 2019. I chose him for two obvious reasons: he was a real smart guy, and he was a fellow of rather generous proportions. In fact one of the few stories I knew of him before my conversion is that he was so large (how large was he?) that he was so large that a half-moon had to be cut out of the refectory table so he could sit comfortably at it.
Maybe just a story. But completely on record is his smartyness, so much so that people are quoting his work to this day. Come up with some new 'insight' (heresy) about religion today? Chances are he already refuted it 700 years ago.
Here's Wikipedia's summation: "The Feast of Saint Thomas Aquinas is a liturgical feast in the Roman Catholic Church and certain other Christian traditions, honoring Saint Thomas Aquinas (c. 1225 – 7 March 1274), an Italian Dominican friarphilosophertheologian, and Doctor of the Church. Known as the "Angelic Doctor" for his theological clarity and purity of life, Thomas is celebrated for his synthesis of faith and reason, notably in his Summa Theologiae, and his Eucharistic hymns integral to the Church’s liturgy. Observed annually, the feast reflects both universal Catholic practices and local customs, with its date and observance evolving over time. The feast date was moved to January 28 in 1969."

Tuesday, January 27, 2026

And What About This?


Who Gets Your Books?


 

The Lord of the Rings: The Pyre of Denethor (Complete)


We go back a bit to the moment the Lord of the Nazgul fled from his encounter with Gandalf to go face the sudden threat of Rohan. Pippin is relieved from the shadow of fear, and tells Gandalf of Denethor’s madness and of his fears that the Steward will kill himself and the seriously wounded Faramir. He begs Gandalf to come and save them.

Gandalf hesitates a moment. The Lord of the Nazgul is still loose and could cause grave ruin if not opposed. As Pippin tells more of the dire situation, Gandalf finally agrees to come, since he is the only one who can help. But others will die. ‘Even in the heart of our stronghold, the Enemy has power to strike us; for his will it is that is at work.’

Having decided, they leave for Rath Dinen, climbing back up the city. As they pass, troops are already taking heart at the news that Rohan has come. They pass Prince Imrahil. The wizard charges him to take command, taking all the men he can. Gandalf will join them when he can; right now he has business with Denethor.

While darkness is passing on the battlefield, ‘it still lies heavy on the City.’ Beregond has left his post to save Faramir. They come to the Closed Door, wide open, its guard slain and its key taken. ‘Work of the Enemy!’ said Gandalf. ‘Such deeds he loves: friend at war with friend; loyalty divided in confusion of hearts.’ Here he takes leave of Shadowfax. The great horse cannot follow into these houses, but the wizard bids him to return at his call.

Pippin and Gandalf go down the silent street lined with columns and statues like ghosts in the growing light. Suddenly the silence is broken by the clash of swords, ‘such sounds as had not been heard in the hallowed places since the building of the City.’

Beregond is fighting, keeping the guards away from the inner chamber. He has already had to kill two of them; the others fight on, calling him faithless and traitor. Gandalf commands them to stop this madness.

At that moment the voice of Denthor comes from within, asking if he has to slay Beregond himself. He bursts out, sword in hand, eyes blazing. But Gandalf steps forward in great anger, lifting his hand, and the sword flies out of the Steward’s hand, who stands amazed. Gandalf asks him sternly just what is going on here.

Denethor snaps back that’s he’s not answerable to the wizard and can command his own servants. ‘You may,’ said Gandalf. ‘But others may contest your will, when it is turned to madness and evil.’ And where is Faramir?

‘He lies within,’ said Denethor, ‘burning, already burning. They have set a fire in his flesh. But soon all shall be burned. The West has failed. It shall go up in a great fire, and all shall be ended. Ash! Ash and smoke blown away on the wind!’

Fearing the worst, Gandalf forces his way into the room, to find Faramir lying on a table stacked with wood and drenched with oil. Gandalf leaps up and bears Faramir down nimbly, who moans and calls for his father in his fever.

Denethor breaks down and weeps, begging them not to take his son from him. Gandalf sternly tells him they cannot be joined in death yet; Faramir must go to the Houses of Healing, where he may die, while the Steward must go to lead and defend his City; he too may fall. Denethor despairs that Faramir is doomed to die; why can’t they die together?

‘Authority is not given to you, Steward of Gondor, to order the hour of your death,’ answered Gandalf. ‘And only the heathen kings, under the domination of the Dark Power, did thus, slaying themselves in pride and despair, murdering their kin to ease their own death.’ They bear Faramir out, and Gandalf gently tells them there is still much he can do.

But Denethor is struck with a spasm of pride and despair. He strides back to the pyre and uncovers the ‘pillow’ that Faramir’s head had lain on. It is a palantir, one of the Seeing Stones, and in the light of its smoldering inner fire the old lord’s face is lit with a red flame.

‘Didst thou think the eyes of the White Tower were blind?’ Denethor has seen more, much more then the Grey Fool thinks. He knows the extent of Sauron’s forces. And he has seen a black fleet sweeping up the Anduin, born on the deceitfully hopeful wind from the sea. And he knows Gandalf hopes to replace him with an upstart Ranger from the North. He has learned much from the Halfling ‘spy’ that he placed in his house.

But even if Aragorn’s claim was proved, still, he was only a scion of the House of Isildur, long bereft of power and dignity. What Denthor wants are things like they were in his fathers’ days, and a son who was no wizard’s pupil, and peace in his days. But since he can’t have that, he will have nothing!



He pulls out a knife and strides forward to kill Faramir, but Beregond stands forward into his way. So Gandalf steals even his knights’ hearts. But he calls the others to bring him fire, and he sets the pyre alight. Denethor snaps his steward’s rod and throws it into the flames, leaps upon the pyre, with the palantir still in his hands, and lays down.

‘And it was said ever after that if any man looked in that Stone, unless he had a great strength of will to turn it to other purpose, he saw only two aged hands withering in flame.’



Gandalf turns away in grief and horror, shutting the door on the fire. After a while Denethor gives a great cry and is never seen or heard again. Gandalf turns to the horrified ‘faithful’ servants and tells them to put aside all strife. Thanks to Beregond, Faramir is still alive, and must be taken for healing. They can pick up their fallen comrades and bear them away. He, Beregond, and Pippin take Faramir, and behind them the tomb of the Stewards crumbles and cracks with flame.

As they pass, Beregond looks with grief on the doorward he had killed in his haste. He gives the key to Gandalf for Faramir, who should now be Lord of the City, but Gandalf says keep it for now until he can hand it over at a more settled time. They proceed to the Houses of Healing. They are in the sixth circle of the City, on the southward side. Here are the only women left as nurses.

But even as they come to the main door of the Houses, there comes a great and terrible cry from the battlefield that rises high and piercing and then dies away on the wind. With its passing all hearts are lifted with hope ‘and it seemed to them that the light grew clear and the sun broke through the clouds.’

Gandalf looks grave and, bidding Pippin and Beregond take Faramir in, goes to the wall overlooking the fields. He stands for a long time, still as white statue, ‘and he beheld with that sight that was given to him all that had befallen,’ up to when Eomer rides out to the forefront of the battle. When Pippin and Beregond joins them, and he tells them that great joy and sorrow have befallen. The Lord of the Nazgul is slain, good news beyond all hope, but not without woe and bitter loss, loss the wizard might have prevented if not for the madness of Denethor.  Gandalf sees now that Sauron was working malice in the very heart of the City, and how he did it.

It was the Palantir, which Gandalf had long known was here. In the days of his wisdom Denethor knew better than to use it, but as the situation grew more dire, he dared the Stone. Sauron could not dominate his will, but he could show Denethor only visions that could tempt him to despair, letting neither hope nor good news through. It overthrew the Steward’s mind.

Pippin and Beregond see that it explains much, and Beregond mentions that strange lights were seen in the Tower and rumors abounded that the Steward often wrestled with the Enemy in mind.

Gandalf says he must go and meet those coming from the field, and bids Pippin come with him. But Beregond must surrender himself to the chief of the Guard and be removed from service, but Gandalf advises he be made Faramir’s bodyguard while he is in the Houses of Healing. After all, he has saved his life.

‘With that he turned away and went with Pippin down towards the lower city. And even as they hastened on their way the wind brought a grey rain, and all the fires sank, and there arose a great smoke before them.’

Bits and Bobs

I don’t have a whole lot of notes to offer here, except to notice the difference between the despairing suicide of Denethor and the peaceful yielding up of life by Aragorn after a long and productive existence. One is a rage of selfishness, the other an offering up, of letting a higher power take the reins.



Another is the note that Gandalf saw with 'the sight that was given him.’ That’s very interesting. Was it a vision sent to him, or was it through a power that had been given to him, say, when he returned enhanced as Gandalf the White? Something to ponder, a small note.

And this is the first complete chapter I’ve been able to do in one go in a long time.

Monday, January 26, 2026

Yeah, What About That?


Will I Leave Behind Thousands of Books?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDfhqDayQgY

This is a question that is also much in my mind. I notice he makes a very rational, virtuous answer. But he qualifies it with a very Augustinian statement: “Someday, but not just yet.”

2021 Diary: Digging a Hole


1/26/2021: Woke up about 7:30 AM. Prayers, Bible, and dressed. About 8 AM I made some chicken tetrazzini for breakfast. Started “Disenchantment” Season 2. At lunch time I made some sandwiches for lunch. At 3 PM I started supper, sausage, and cabbage fry. Finished and ate at 4:45 PM. Weather warm and clearish.

Finished “Disenchantment” Season 2. Went in a little after 8 PM to wash up and when done finished my rosary. Oh, I’m doing a thing where I say my rosary while I work on stuff, and sometimes do it in shifts. Blogged on NOT, watched Green Acres, then blogged some more. It’s now 9:40 PM, and I’m getting ready to lie down and read and see if I can go to sleep. 

 

1/27/2021: Awake at 3 AM, so said prayers and read Bible, then looked through the Writings folder a bit. Stayed up doing this and that (playing WWF, posting NOT, watching Dragnet, cartoons, Disenchantment Season 3, etc.). Made ramen with eggs and bread then to about a 30-minute nap until about 8:45 AM. Kameron called 9:10 AM and I went in, cleaned up Ginger’s mess, then got him a Nutty Buddy. Now I’m making fried lunch meat sandwiches for second breakfast.

The day went on, watching Netflix and YT. About 12:30 PM I went in at Kam’s behest and looked at some 2-year-old cheese sticks (not good; threw them out) then made him some of my chicken nuggets (had a few myself). Started stew soon thereafter, which eventually had carrots, onions, rice, and potatoes. Later made jalapeno cornbread. Kinda burned the bottom of my pot, so switched it over to another and took mine in to soak. Ate at about 4:30 PM. Yadda yadda yadda shows, cleaning. Rosary. Bed.

 

1/28/2021: Woke up a couple of minutes before 6 AM. Prayers, Bible. Cartoons. Started making beef stroganoff at 7 AM. Went in at 9 AM, made Kame corn dogs and taquitos, and a few chicken nuggets for me. Came back out and spent the morning writing a review of my new copy of “Unfinished Tales” then spent time mooning around my entries on Tolkien books. I had just lay down about 12:30 PM when Andy comes in with MORE mail. He also tells me that Jade got out under the fence, that Kaitlyn is coming over here soon, and that poor Dodger got KILLED by racoons early this morning. We are not putting out cat food anymore, so Ditto is out of luck and the raccoons can no longer snitch any or be drawn by it. Goodbye, Dodgie. He was such a good, affectionate cat, a rescue that Susan and Andie saved from the roadside. He won’t come sit with me on the front porch again.

Continued re-watching Disenchantment Season 3. At 3:30 PM I heard Kaitlyn outside with Jade and Kia. Went out and we visited a while, then at 4 PM I had to start supper (chili, etc.) and she had to leave again for San Antonio. Finished making supper just at 5 PM. Made HEB order. Went in to wash up at 7:30 PM and talked with Susan a bit. Took last of stew in, and they gave me the rest of the pecan ice cream as they are on a diet. I spit the pecans out (no teeth), but it was mighty tasty. Watched GA. Rosary. Bed.

 

1/29/2021: Up at 6:30 AM. Prayers, Bible. Watched the end of cartoons then shower, dress. Wash dishes, take medicine. Catch up diary. It’s now 7:30 AM. Ate the last Zebra cake to take my medicine. 

Went in at 9 AM, just when HEB was delivering at the front door. I moved it in then made Kam some corn dogs and taquitos. Later he came in before noon to start his homework under my supervision. It was making designs for buttons. More or less after he finished (his teacher told him to color them) we found out that weren’t due until Monday, when he would start taking the bus and going to school again. We watched some MYST3K, then I had to start frying taters at 2:30 PM. At first, I couldn’t get the frying pan as it was tucked between two others with the handle facing the back. Watched YT.

I finished cooking (fish and spinach too) by 5 PM. Took my fish in and continued frying the last batch of potatoes. Susan told me Andy wouldn’t be home for a while (working with his dad). Washed up a little after 7 PM. Susan and I talked about taxes and back accounts. Washed my dishes and started rosary. Andy got home about 8 PM and came over and told me to come in at 7:30 AM to make the omelet. Finished the rosary. Watched some GP and GA. Now a little after 9 PM. Bed a little after 11 PM.

 

1/30/2021: Awake about 5:30 AM, from a sort of dream/pre-waking consideration of the Autumn Festival chapter which I saw in a highly visual manner as I seemed to composing it in my head. Prayers, Bible, then wrote a bit. Can of ravioli and medicine. Watched Popeye at 6 AM, then fell asleep some time after 7 AM when Tom and Jerry started. Awake again at 7:40 AM and went in to start the omelet. Morning warm and overcast.

Used whole bag of spinach, half an onion, a red bell pepper, split cherry tomatoes, mushrooms, and 14 eggs. While I waited for it to cook in the microwave, I had a slice of jalapeno cornbread. Heated up a can of beans. Out the door about 8:40 AM with my slice of omelet, which I ate with cheese and Whataburger salsa verde. Caught the last bit of Bugs cartoons. It’s now 9:14 AM. Susan wants to take me to the ATM about 2 PM maybe. I’m thinking about a quick nap then writing until that time.

Finished up 7 pages and sent them to John. Pootled around until Susan came out at about 2:30 PM and said we would go to the bank to make a withdrawal rather than from an ATM, as she needed to make a deposit, and then to Walmart. We scrambled to get ready as the bank closes as 3 PM. We got there under the wire, then Susan realized she had forgotten to bring a mask. She dropped me off at Walmart and went home right quick. I picked out a comforter, a mirror, a frying pan, and some paper towels. As I was headed for the registers, I met up with Susan going the same way. She helped me check out. In the truck she was a little dubious about my comforter; there was a little furry pillow included and it was rather spangly, but it was the best option I could find, but it was basically black and not floral. We dropped by HEB and she got some stuff for supper, including a pulled-pork sandwich for me. Home we went, and as we were getting things in, Ditto showed up for the first time since Dodger passed. So, we’re stuck with him a while yet. Susan set out food for him.

After I ate, I watched YT a while, then before the sun went down (6 PM) used my new mirror to buzz my head. Now I have the Stooges on and soon it will be Svengoolie at 7 AM.

Didn’t watch Sven, but more YT. Bed at 9 PM.

 

1/31/2021: Up at 5:30 AM. Prayers, Bible. Then showered and dressed early. Headed out at 6:55 AM. At church my fogged glasses had me sitting in the wrong pew at first, then my mask snapped apart (luckily, they had some at the entrance), then I dropped my missalette. For the mass we had a substitute priest, though Fr. Stan got back at the end. Went to the restroom before and after. Home about 9:25 AM. Divested myself, then turned on The Flintstones. Time to make breakfast, I guess. Amy’s birthday and one-twelfth of the year is over.

Not much happened over the day. Andy brought me some leftover stuff, Kam came in to watch the “Diggy Diggy Hole” videos, the sky was bright and blue. I watched a six-part documentary on Monty Python. Towards evening John answered my e-mails from yesterday (he’s been busy with Amy and Morgandy birthdays). Ate sandwiches at lunch and Cheese Hamburger Helper for supper.  Bed about 9 PM.

Notes

An abundance of Gomer Pyle and Green Acres at this time, but they had just started up again on MeTV and I was finding them strangely nostalgic. This was also before the cartoon gene-pool had gotten diluted by Woody Woodpecker and Walter Lantz; I considered the MGM Tom and Jerry stuff to be the filler then, with Popeye and Bugs Bunny the meat of the sandwich. You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.

And I’m angry reading about the careless eating I was doing; not only because of the things contra-indicated by my new diet, but jealousy of the abundance. Right now, I’m at the end of the month when I’m wrestling with a skimpy adequacy; if I only had the makings of a good stew right now, especially in this freezing weather -!

Poor old Dodger. He got his name because Susan rescued him when he was a kitten, dodging traffic on the highway. Ditto was a ‘wild’ black cat that turned up a little while before this; you always had to look twice before you were sure which one it was. Now he’s gone, too. We’ve got one semi-wild brindle female left, whom Kameron calls Mamas, and her occasional suitors.

Kameron’s done with school, we don’t have to worry about masks (I still have most of a box), I’ve got yet another comforter (still using the spangly one, though), use the mirror every time I have to shave my head, and I still put on Diggy Diggy Hole (the 10-hour replay, on the phone now) to help get me through stretches of needful chores. The tedium of the last days of January … goes on.


 

Sunday, January 25, 2026

The Shadow Library: The Late Great Planet Earth


Being members of one doom-cult for a while and then being out of it, it did not seem completely unlikely to us that Hal Lindsay may have had some version of the same beliefs, either more or less heretical to ours, or, then, our old cult was the heresy and Lindsay’s ideas the more orthodox. That they were both more or less just chin-music had yet to be proven and seemed to merit some investigation. And popular? For a while you couldn’t go to a garage sale without finding a cheap copy for sale. The idea of the end of the world was both titillating and invigorating; if you could believe that the good guys would win, it was all the more re-assuring in an uncertain world. We had our battered second-hand copy, right in the same communal bookhoard as Chariots of the Gods? and somehow in the same genre. Lindsay kept tap-dancing after the proposed expiration date, but his heyday was over long before he himself passed away, still waiting for the earthly millenium. Somehow, the book continues to be reprinted and sold.

“The Late Great Planet Earth is a 1970 book by Hal Lindsey, with contributions by Carole C. Carlson, first published by ZondervanThe New York Times declared it to be the bestselling [speculative] nonfiction book of the 1970s. Over 28 million copies have been sold and the book has been translated into 54 languages.

It was adapted by Rolf Forsberg and Robert Amram into a 1978 film narrated by Orson Welles and released by Pacific International Enterprises. Religion historian Crawford Gribben states that The Late Great Planet Earth "set a pattern for the shape of the political re-engagement of American evangelicals in the final third of the twentieth century" …

The Late Great Planet Earth is a treatment of dispensational premillennialism. As such, it compared end-time prophecies in the Bible with then-current events in an attempt to predict future scenarios resulting in the rapture of believers before the Great Tribulation and Second Coming of Jesus to establish his thousand-year (i.e. millennial) kingdom on Earth. Lindsey originally suggested the possibility that these climactic events might occur during the 1980s, which he interpreted as one generation from the foundation of modern Israel during 1948. Some readers accepted this as an indication that the Tribulation or the Rapture would occur no later than 1988. The Late Great Planet Earth was the first Christian prophecy book to be published by a secular publisher (Bantam, 1973) and sell many copies. 28 million copies had sold by 1990." - Wikipedia




 

Saturday, January 24, 2026

Seen-A-Ma


I was sitting around, pondering, as I do, and the idea came to me to make a list of all the movies we had seen in the theater as a family, or most of the family. Together John and I put together Race For Your Life Charlie Brown, In Search of Ancient Astronauts, The Late Great Planet Earth, The Deep, Magic, Phantom of the Paradise, Pinocchio, Bedknobs and Broomsticks, Journey Back to Oz, The Swarm, Orca, A Hundred and One Dalmations, Bambi, Song of the South, Charlotte’s Web, Jaws, True Grit, The Jungle Book, Lady and the Tramp, Robin Hood, The Aristocats, Against a Crooked Sky, The Brothers O’Toole, and Alice in Wonderland (1972). I noted how much easier it would be if we still had an old paperback that listed a bunch of movies along with potted plot summaries, and that set me down another rabbit hole. I think it might have been one of these volumes.

Steven H. Scheuer’s Movies on TV, first published in 1958 under the title TV Movie Almanac & Rating, was the first guide of its kind. It contained capsule reviews and ratings of movies using a four star rating system. By the release of Leonard Maltin's similarly titled TV Movies in September 1969 (later rebranded Leonard Maltin's Movie Guide), there had been five editions of Scheuer's book under four different names. At that time it contained 7,000 films compared to 8,000 in Maltin's TV Movies. It wasn't until the eighth edition (1978-79) that Scheuer started to include the movie's director and expanded the short synopses. It was renamed Movies on TV and Videocassette in 1989. Scheuer's book differed from Maltin's in that it featured a greater number of made-for-television productions, including aired television pilots that Maltin's book omitted.” – Wikipedia.

I remember a strange anecdote connected with the book: I was able to trace down in it one bizarre little film that Mom remembered seeing in childhood called Bill and Coo (1948), starring mostly trained birds.


The Meaning of Maunderings


I labelled my little moan yesterday as 'maunderings' for the blog, and I thought I might as well define exactly what I mean by the term, as I have used it several times in the past. In the broadest definition I think of it as talking to myself, either to offload worries or memories that are insisting too much upon themselves or, more concretely, to analyze such feelings and think about a plan or reaction, some way to 'take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing, end them.' The result of yesterday's maunderings was that this morning I did suit up for a trip to Family Dollar, as the weather was fairly dry still and only 34 degrees Fahrenheit. Actually pretty favorable conditions compared to what we are threatened with. It only took me forty minutes, and now I can sit comfortably knowing that I did what I could. And the only reason I mention this is that I'm kind of in suspended animation until this cold snap passes, and that includes my brain, which is occupied with 'conditions.'

 

Friday, January 23, 2026

What To Do? What To Do?


I must confess to being in a bit of a quandary today. Usually I can fill Friday with some Friday Fiction, but I don't have anything I feel like publishing today. I continue to work on my fantasy series, but that's not for public consumption yet. And I must say that for the first time all January I'm feeling a bit ... rudderless. I have no event to trapeze over until the first of the month. 
I'm still on track with my 'resolutions,' so there's no problems there. I have plenty of supplies to get me to the end of the month, and a little in the bank still, if needs be. I've done all my doctor appointments. Perhaps the trouble is I'm in a sort of limbo between now and the end of the month. 
And we're teetering on the brink of threatened freezing period, one that will almost certainly pin me down for a couple of days. I can't decide if one more trip to Family Dollar is called for, but that would just be for items, not necessarily neccessary, but that would ease my tastebuds, as it were. I have water; should I get tea bags? That sort of thing. I'm out of a couple of medications; even if they do get filled (I've been trying for a week and a half now) should I try to cadge a ride or wait until Monday to take a bus? These are the uncertainties that nag my mind.
I've been good about getting to the church for all Holy Days of Obligation this year; will the cold keep me home this Sunday and break my (admittedly not very long) streak? I really can't tell until Sunday morning weather comes and I can see how things are. This also keeps me in suspense. I fell down on the ice once on my way to church and bruised my ribs. Should I risk a repeat of the incident?
And all is tempered with the idea that I may as well just sit tight as do anything. I have food and a little austerity won't hurt me anyway. The weather is already unpleasant to journey through; I might as well just rest my knees. God will forgive me if inclement weather and safety concerns keep me home. And so on, and on. I am bugged with the feeling I should be more proactive and fretted with the idea I should sit tight, as time ticks down until circumstances will simply eventually decide for me. And that is an uncomfortable idea.

Thursday, January 22, 2026

Happy Birthday, Mr. Howard


Today is Robert E. Howard's 120th birthday. The original classic Texas Fantasist. I've always liked him and his greatest creation, Conan, as any search of this blog will show. I've always kind of wanted to like him more. I've bought tons of related material; I've also found it fairly easy to part with them. His philosophy is peurile; his personal relationships were pitiable; yet there is a sort of spirit and verve to him and his work that makes the sale. He is the equivalent of a hamburger and fries compared to a quality restaurant meal. And a burger can be delicious and just what you want. So let's raise a glass to poor ol' Two-Gun Bob, gone far too soon.

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Wednesday, January 21, 2026

Wideo Wednesday: Movie Night Review


Yesterday was another fun Movie Night. Movie Night has evolved into one evening every two weeks when my nephew Kameron and I go to visit my brother John and his kid Joey. We select movies and TV shows that we want to share and that we think others will enjoy, and we have a good meal. We can usually get through two movies every night, with an episode or two of classic TV series to round it off. Last night was no exception; not only did it provide a history lesson for us all, it also indulged one of our favorite pastimes, Spot the Actor, where we identified familiar favorites and recounted where we knew them from. Being BBC productions, it was a fertile field.



First up was The Gathering Storm (2002). “The Gathering Storm is a BBCHBO co-produced television biographical film about Winston Churchill in the years just prior to World War II. The title of the film is that of the first volume of Churchill's largely autobiographical six-volume history of the war, which covered the period from 1919 to 3 September 1939, the day he became First Lord of the Admiralty.

“The film stars Albert Finney as Churchill and Vanessa Redgrave as his wife Clementine Churchill ("Clemmie"). The film also features a supporting cast of British actors such as Derek JacobiRonnie Barker , Jim BroadbentTom WilkinsonCelia ImrieLinus Roache and Hugh Bonneville, and is notable for an early appearance by a young Tom Hiddleston.” – Wikipedia.



We of course followed it with the sequel, Into the Storm (2009). “Into the Storm is a 2009 biographical film about Winston Churchill and his days in office during the Second World War. The movie stars Brendan Gleeson as the British Prime Minister. The Second World War has recently ended in Europe, and the people of the United Kingdom are awaiting the results of the 1945 general election. During this time, Winston Churchill goes to France for a holiday with his wife Clemmie. Through a series of flashbacks, Churchill recalls some of his most glorious moments during the war, and the effect it had on their marriage.” – Wikipedia.

For the first few moments of the second film I felt a little bit of a jar as our Churchill was switched from Albert Finney (who I will always associate with The Dresser and Big Fish) to Brendan Gleeson (Mad-Eye Moody in Harry Potter), but I was soon caught up in the tale and it ceased to make any difference; they were both Churchill.



Our last viewing as we wound down was Episode Two of the 1972 series The Shadow of the Tower. “Episode 2: Power in the Land. Henry consolidates his power when Elizabeth gives birth to Prince Arthur, legitimizing Henry's claim of descent from the legendary monarch.” – IMDB. The conspiracies of a couple of brothers and the clash of the powers of Church and State are also part of the plot. As an amazing instance of Spot the Celebrity John was able to identify the Earl of Lincoln as the father in Pink Floyd’s The Wall (movie, 1982).

We need to start keeping a list of viewings that get suggested every night we watch something else. Kameron thought of The Wind Rises because of the WW2 aviation scenes, and John mentioned that he had never seen Big Fish, which I think he really must. A post like this might help me remember things next time when possibilities are mooted once more.


 

Tuesday, January 20, 2026

The Lord of the Rings: The Battle of the Pelennor Fields (Part 4 and Last)


‘And now the fighting waxed furious on the fields of the Pelennor, and the din of arms rose upon high, and the crying of men and neighing of horses. Horns were blowing and trumpets were braying, and the mumakil were bellowing as they were goaded to war.’ The foot soldiers of Gondor advance on the Morgul-legions around the walls of the City, while their mounted troops ride to the aid of Eomer and the Rohirrim, ‘Hurin the Tall, Warden of the keys, and the Lord of Lossarnach, and Hirluin of the Green Hills, and Prince Imrahil with his fair Knights.’

And Eomer and his captains need it; their furious onset has driven wedges into the foe, great forces of Southrons. But wherever the mumakil (Oliphaunts) are the horses will not go, and the great beast stand unfought like towers in the middle of the battle with the Haradim rallying around them. The Rohirrim were already outnumbered by at least three times, and now new forces from Osgiliath are streaming onto the field.

These were forces that the Lord of the Nazgul had held mustered, awaiting the sack of Gondor. That Captain is now destroyed, but ‘Gothmog, the lieutenant of Morgul,’ now sends them into the fray; ‘Easterlings with axes, Variags of Khand, Southrons in scarlet, and out of Far Harad black men like half-trolls with white eyes and red tongues.’ They come up behind the Rohirrim and some try to keep the forces of Gondor from joining up with Rohan.

It is now when things are already looking bad that they seem to look worse. In the clear mid-morning with rain to the north and a driving wind, lookouts see a vast fleet of black sails coming up the Anduin. The cry goes up that the Corsairs [pirates] of Umbar are coming, and that the coastlands must have fallen. They try to call Gondor back into the City in retreat, but the wind blows their clamor away.

But Eomer can see them. He is not even a mile from Harlond, the great docks, and can see the ‘dromunds, and ships of great draught, and … black sails bellying in the breeze.’ He now curses the wind that is bringing them, but the hosts of Mordor are filled with new fury with the prospect of these reinforcements.

Eomer’s mind, however, clears, and he gathers men to make a great shield wall to fight to the last, ‘though no man should be left in the West to remember the last King of the Mark.’ He rides to a green hill and sets the banner and speaks these staves:

Out of doubt, out of dark to the day’s rising

I came singing in the sun, sword unsheathing.

To hope’s end I rode and to heart’s breaking:

Now for wrath, now for ruin and a red nightfall!

He laughs; the battle-fury is on him again. He isn’t wounded, he is young and king, and ‘lord of a fell people.’ He is ready to fight, beyond hope or despair. He raises his sword to the fleet in defiance.

‘And then wonder took him, and a great joy; and he cast his sword up in the sunlight and sang as he caught it.’ For a great standard has suddenly unfurled on the lead ship. It bears the White Tree of Gondor, and the Crown and Seven Stars of Elendil ‘that no lord had borne for years beyond count.’



“Thus came Aragorn son of Arathorn, Elessar, Isildur’s Heir, out of the Paths of the Dead, borne upon a wind from the Sea.’ The Rohirrim rejoice with laughter and swords and the City with ‘a music of trumpets and a ringing of bells.’ The hosts of Mordor are confounded with this sudden turn of fate, and it ‘seems a great wizardy’ that their own ships should come filled with their foes. The tides (quite literally) have turned against them.

From the east come the knight of Dol Amroth, from the south comes Eomer. And from the ships leap Legolas, and Gimli, and Elladan and Elrohir, the sons of Elrond. The dour-handed band of Rangers from the North lead ‘a great valour’ of the folk of the fiefs of the coastlands of the South, including men of the West that had been enslaved on the ships and were now freed. ‘But before all went Aragorn with the Flame of the West, Anduril like a fire new-kindled, Narsil re-forged as deadly as of old; and upon his brow was the Star of Elendil.’

At length Aragorn and Eomer meet in the midst of the fighting, and they pause a moment, each glad to see the other. Aragorn reminds Eomer that he told him at the Hornburg they would meet again, ‘though all the hosts of Mordor lay between.’ They clasp hands, and Eomer says his aid was never more welcome, or more timely. ‘Much loss and much sorrow has befallen us.’



‘Then let us avenge it, ere we speak of it!’ said Aragorn, and they ride back to battle together.

There is still plenty of hard fighting ahead;  ‘the Southrons were bold men and grim, and fierce in despair; and the Easterlings were strong and war-hardened and asked for no quarter.’  They gather and rally all for hours, but by the red end of the day the fields are drenched with blood. ‘[N]ot one living foe was left within the circuit of the Rammas [wall]. All were slain save those who fled to die, or to drown in the red foam of the River. Few ever came eastward to Morgul or Mordor, and to the land of the Haradrim came only a tale from far off: a rumor of the wrath and terror of Gondor.’

Aragorn and Eomer and Imrahil ride back to the City, weary but unscathed. Such was their skill and strength. ‘But many others were hurt or maimed or dead upon the field.’ Some named are Forlong, hewed with axes, Duilin and his brother Derufin, trampled by mumakil; Hirluin, Grimbold, Grimslade, and Halbarad the Ranger from the North. Long afterwards a ‘maker’ of Rohan lists them in his song of the [burial] Mounds of Mundburg [Gondor], along with Theoden, Harding, Guthlaf, Dunhere, Deorwine, Herefara, Herubrand, Horn, and Fastred.

Death at the morning and day’s ending

lords took and lowly. Long now they sleep

Under grass in Gondor by the Great River.

Notes

Hurin and Gothmog are both names from the original material of the Silmarillion, Hurin a great chieftain of men and Gothmog the Lord of the Balrogs. There has been some speculation of who or what Gothmog here was: a lesser ringwraith (as per the 1977 wargame); an Orc as per the Jackson films; or a human, perhaps a Black Numenorean. Nobody is sure.



There are many historical notes behind much of this battle: the fear of horses of elephants in battle was remarked on in Greek and Roman texts; a dromund is a ship used in medieval times ‘propelled by many oars with a single mast and a square sail’; Eomer tosses up his sword and catches it as the Norman minstrel Taillefer did at the Battle of Hastings. Much of this section is recounted in the Anglo-Saxon manner and using such verse forms; the end recalls the Homeric ‘Catalog of Ships’ where a list of names is recounted to demonstrate verisimilitude and to suggest details uncountable.

The Elendilmir or Star of Elendil is not the original; that was lost with Isildur when he was killed at the Gladden Fields. Aragorn wore the replacement that was made in Rivendell for Valandil and the heirs of Isildur. The original was found later locked in a secret vault in Orthanc; apparently Saruman had found it along with the chain Isildur had kept the Ring on.

Aragorn’s standard was made by Arwen ‘with jewels and silver’ and was the mysterious wrapped staff that Halbarad handed over to Aragorn and that was unfurled at the Stone of Erech to prove to the Dead Men his claims.

Eomer mentions that he did not know Aragorn was ‘fore-sighted’ when he said they would meet again, though all the hosts of Mordor stood between. Whether this was because of his plans and wisdom or because he really had some spiritual power, is ambiguous.