Funeral For a Fly
He gazed out the window and
wondered what time it was. He knew where he was: he lay on a childhood bunkbed
in that fearfully decayed front bedroom at the old house. Before him was a window
open to the screen, hedged with ill-hung curtains like moss; he could see the
front yard bathed in a ghastly, disastrous light. If it was evening, the coming
dark would be terrible. If it was morning, it would be even more frightening.
The ancient rosebush clawed uneasily at the screen with a dim, feeble motion.
He could sense but not clearly
see the room around him. Overhead the top bunk sagged, burdened with who knows
what loads. He feared if he shifted his weigh too quickly it might crash down
upon him. All around he could vaguely sense ancient cardboard boxes and piles
of clothing, heaped almost to the ceiling, which towered into darkness, on
dressers, on the floor. He felt like a cockroach, pinned immobile in a mound of
filth. He kept looking out the window, as the only hope of light and air, but
could see nothing clearly.
Suddenly one of his brothers
(he thought it was one of his brothers, he couldn’t be sure; it sounded vaguely
familiar but was only a dark presence, suggestive, sensed in the dark) came quietly
into the room and stood, watching him.
“Well,” the figure asked, “What
are you looking at there?”
He really didn’t know. He
felt if he gave a vague, honest answer, it might very well trigger an
unpleasant response, something he wouldn’t want to hear. So almost at random he
said, “I’ve been watching a fly’s funeral.”
“Oh? And what is that?”
“There were three flies here
on the windowsill. One of them was obviously dead. The other two buzzed around
it with seeming concern. I mean, I’ve seen flies buzz around plenty of dead
things but never one of their own. These two seemed intent on getting the dead
one to move, and when that failed, stood buzzing their wings at it.”
“In what way was this a
funeral?”
“It seemed so to me. They
buzzed as if singing a thin, high little song. After a bit, the wind of their
wings and little nudges with their forelegs moved the dead one off the sill and
it dropped out of sight, to the grass below, I assume. It was if they couldn’t
leave it lying stark on the white wood and had to conceal the corpse. After a
moment of grooming each other in consolation, they flew away.”
“And what were your
conclusions from this little drama?”
His mind raced in the
darkness.
“I was reminded of second
chapter of Romans,” he improvised. “If these little creatures ‘who do not have
the law do by nature things required by the law, they are a law for themselves,
even though they do not have the law. They show that the requirements of the
law are written on their hearts,’ so much more should we, who know so much
more, follow the Commandments of God.”
The figure that might have
been his brother seemed mollified, even amused.
“Still preaching after all these
years.”
“Sermons in stones, you
know. Even now. Even here.”
Outside the light grew
darker. A coming storm, or the night drawing down? Either way, it promised it
would be grim. Around him the house seemed eternal, inescapable, and he
wondered, before the last light flickered out, if he had ever really left it,
and how it would weather the falling dark.
-December 19, 2025
Notes
"A sad tale's best for winter." - William Shakespeare. "In summer, 'tis off to the beach." - MAD Magazine. As you might be able to tell, this is the 'novelization' of another one of my disquieting dreams. It's as accurate - and as expressive - as I can make it. I'm really feeling much more cheerful than this.

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